17-3-2024

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Dear diary,

It's getting bad again.

Last night I have cried for three hours. The first two were about being unmentally stable, the glass child, oldest daughter and lonely. But the third hour hit different. I cried about my cat, Nala. 

Fuck I miss her so much.

But I don't want to complain about this to my friends cause they got their own shit and I don't want them to worry about me. 

Her wings were ready but my heart was not. And it still isn't.

It just... it feels so bad knowing that I will never hold her again. The lest time I saw her was when I said goodnight and the next day she walked away.

I'll still be waiting for her, you know? Every day, every hour and every minute of my life. Every time I don't cry I feel guilty because it makes me feel like I am forgetting her and I don't want to.

I am also writing another book now. It is about me losing her.

Shit I just realized that I have been writing about her this whole chapter. But that's okay. You guys don't mind, right?

I really needed to vent. Thanks for reading this and thank you so much for sticking with me. That means a lot.

Only love <3

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