My Diary

29-3-2024

Dear diary,

I am sorry but I am a little bit later.

After I uploaded yesterday, a few more things happened.

My grandma went into surgery for her knee, I burned myself in the shower, I found out that I am a people pleaser and yeah, that's basically it.

Today I confirmed the last one. 

Yes I did burn myself in the shower. I asked Claire if burning in the shower was self harm and then she said "Gurl yes of course if it self harm."

So I am self harming? Great. Maybe I'll tell my parents because I do not want to end up with burn scars all over me.

My grandma her surgery went well! That's great!

I am going to visit her tomorrow.

Also, if some of you do not have a life, please read my two other books. I SWEAR it only takes like, a few minutes for each one. You can read about the dreams I have, my shifting experiences and it is crazyy.

I am going to go again since I REALLY want to shift. Like REALLY REALLY badly.

But maybe I have to take a break once...

NOT TODAYY!!

Oh and I am in the same table group as Hunter at Art and Design.

HE DOESN'T MIND ME YAPPING ALL THE TIME!! I AM SO HAPPY!!

Also feed my delusions bc when I was explaining something that I saw on the show, Sherlock Holmes, he reacted in a weird way. This is how it went:

Me: "So first I would have to marry someone before I do it." (Like killing someone. We were discussing murder plans.)

Hunter: "Please do so yes."

HE MUMBLED IT BUT SOMETIMES I HAVE EARS THAT WORK VERY WELL AND I AM SO SO HAPPY!!

That was it for todayy... Also I lied to June and told her that I couldn't cycle because I had to listen to Bruno Mars. I apologized because apparently I made her cry when I told her that I was going to cycle alone.

Well she made me cry.

I cried a LOT when she texted me the: "Then why do you fail everything?!" I already told y'all but I don't want to tell others.

I still kinda feel guilty about Claire hurting herself again.

Welp... bye my loves <33 Have a nice weekend!!