Things to know

fighting a losing battle

if someone would have told me
six months ago
that this was where we'd be
no contact
no talking
with you saying you don't love me anymore
god i never would have believed them

i would have laughed it off
and moved on with my day
cause we were perfect for each other
so then how did we get here
i felt how distant you were
you never wanted to talk to me
stopped calling me baby except when you
needed something only I could give
stopped calling, barely texted
stopped coming over
stopped telling me you loved me
how did we get here?

id have jumped off the next cliff
just to see your face
id have burned in a sea of fire
just to hear your voice
id have fuckin cut myself
burned myself
bled out for you
and you never really felt the same
because if you think about it
you haven't loved me for a while,
have you?

it's been forever since you were truly happy
to see me
it's been months since you
missed seeing my face
you didn't miss me
you stopped kissing me
you stopped loving me
and now we're nothing

i blocked you first
on everything you could contact me on
told myself it's for the better
this doesn't feel like it's for the better
this shit feels like death
i thought we were doing better
i thought you missed me
missed my touch
and sleeping next to me

you didn't miss me
you didn't wish you were kissing me
you didn't miss my touch
or the feeling of my hands in your hair
when i scratched your head
in the spots you liked best
bro i learned everything about you
i literally learned everything about you

i know the way you kiss
i know how you grab my hips
when you're slamming into me
i know the look of concentration
that spreads across your face
when you're about to let loose

i know every thing about you
i know the good and the bad
i know the worst and the best
i know you better than you know you
i know why you can't let me go
and why you refuse to sleep even now
you're scared when you wake up I'll
be gone from your phone again

you're right, of course
im waiting for you to fall asleep
before i leave your life again
we aren't going to make it
as anything, ever again
because i don't believe you
when you say you'll change
i think you're lying in the hopes of
climbing back into my life

it won't work this time
and im sorry it has to be like this
but we really are done
that's why i left in the first place
im done fighting a losing game