How bad did it hurt?
It hurt so bad I cried so hard I couldn't breathe
It hurt so bad I laid in bed that night
Prayed to a God I didn't believe in
And begged him to take me off this earth
I stopped sleeping during the night
And crashed from exhaustion every morning
Sometime between 4 and 7am every day
How bad did it hurt
I started counting calories
How bad did it hurt
It hurt so bad I changed the way I dressed
How bad did it hurt
It hurt so bad I cried in my friends arms
And told my mama I was gonna end it
How bad did it hurt
I still cry over it
How bad did it hurt
So bad I stopped feeling and went manic
It hurt so bad it sent me into a panic attack
It hurt so bad it made me split on him
How bad did it fucking hurt
I was so fucking angry
I smashed n broke things
I wrote about him constantly
How bad did it hurt
It changed my view on
Whether love could be unconditional
How bad did it hurt
So bad I felt like I couldn't trust anyone
So bad I cut myself two days in a row
I made playlists about it
How bad did it hurt
I cried for hours
How bad did it hurt
How bad did it hurt
God it fucking hurts
And it won't stop
It hurts so bad
I stop in the middle of something
And I can't breathe
And I still panic
I can't see myself being loved again
I feel ugly
And worthless
And like no one will ever want me again
The way I am now
It hurt so bad I feel like I gotta change
Who I am
To be worth something to someone
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Things to know
Puisithis is a poetry book filled with poems that describe how I feel about myself, and some of them describe my relationships with some people, and the last few were just inspiration that hit and they came out on the paper
