Things to know

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i tell everyone im over you
the real ones know im not

i still smell you on my sheets sometimes
i still cradle your hoodie when im sleeping
but it doesn't carry your scent anymore
i just feel closer to you when I hold it

i can still feel your energy in my room
sometimes i lay here and let your energy
envelope me, and pretend you're holding me
but when i open my eyes, you're not here

i still tell everyone your the love of my life
we barely ever talk
you text me in the hopes I'll save you
i don't think we'll end up together anymore

i still tell you i love you
and you still say it back
and i want to believe it so bad
but i know doing that will only hurt more

i still call you pet names
mi vida, mi amor, my love, honey, baby, babe
and you still respond to them
force of habit, I think, not force of love

i still cry myself to sleep at night
because you're not here
and i wish you were holding me
as we fell asleep, like we used to

i still dye my hair
the color you love most
in the hopes of remaining close
to you

i still check your location
and get sad when you're not answering
and get sad when you ignore me
even though we're not together

i still tell myself imma marry you
even though each day we drift farther apart
even though you seem to miss me less
even though you seem like you're doing ok

i still love you, i promise
i still miss you, i promise
i still want you, i promise
only you, forever and always?

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