Things to know

toxic love doesn't last

You're saying how I left you
But I was wrong, at least at the time
But from what I can tell
It's been me trying every day since
And then I came to terms with something
You're perfectly fine
When you're without me
I'm sitting here pretending I'm doing ok
I'm not doing alright
I keep seeing your active status
And as soon as you see mine you dip
Do you think imma try to text you?
Trust me I'm not
I'm waiting for you to remember
I was there for you in your worst moments
And you will remember here soon
It never takes you long to run back to me
But this time will be different
You'll run back
And I'll let you, again
But this time when you come running
You'll mess up like you always do
And I won't be here in the aftermath
I'm going to leave you then

You're waiting for me to mess up
But I won't, and I never really did, did I?
Truth is you got tired of me
Because I wanted you
For the rest of our lives
And you knew I'd always let you do
Whatever you wanted
Even when it hurt me
But I'm done putting you above me
Fifteen long months
Of putting your will before mine
When all it ever did was hurt me
Why did I do that to myself

Don't get it twisted though
I do love you
Like I always have
I just can't keep replaying the same mistakes
Over and over
Hoping for different results
Because it always goes the same
Every fucking time
You fuck up
You hurt me
You leave
And I let you back
And I forgive you
And I keep loving you
But I'm done letting you fuck up
I'm done letting you hurt me
I'm done asking you to stay
I'm done letting you come back
I'm done forgiving you for hurting me
And I'm done letting love
Be the reason for all the pain
That you cause me on a regular basis

I love you
More than I did before
But it's time for me to get some self respect
Because I let it all go for you
I love you
More than I did before
But it's time for me to stop letting you hurt me
Because I care about you
I love you
More than I did before
But it's time for us to realize love can't
Always hold a broken relationship together

And that's all there is to it, amor
We can't keep doing this
We're soulmates
I knew the first time I looked at you
But we're also toxic soul ties
And this isn't healthy for either of us
And you know it
I'm sorry
I don't want to hurt you
This is going to hurt me a lot and
Hopefully you won't feel it at all
I'm sorry