i sent you a paragraph
today sometime around midnight
detailing that we need some more time
truth is we need more than that
we need distance and space
i don't want to leave you behind but
here's the truth
i begged you to change
for so so long
i sat there and waited when you
said that you would
and i watched what it looked like
when did you change
for a period of days
only to go back
to those same things
i asked you to change in the first place
if you had just
respected me like I asked you to
treated me like you cared for me
knew that i was what you wanted
and stopped lying to me
I wouldn't have to leave
you told me i asked for too much
and that i needed to
fix myself before asking you to change
you said that i wasn't perfect either
that i manipulated and gaslit you
i never did that to you
but maybe it was easier on you,
telling yourself I was no good for you?
based on where we are now
leaving is my only option
you don't realize im leaving
but im sure when i don't contact you again
you'll realize soon enough
i have no plans to come back
not this time
i asked you to change for the better
you made me feel like my expectations
were too high and thus unachievable
all I really asked you for was respect
and love for who I am,
instead of who I could be
if you had just been who i begged you to be
then you wouldn't have to watch me leave..
YOU ARE READING
Things to know
Poetrythis is a poetry book filled with poems that describe how I feel about myself, and some of them describe my relationships with some people, and the last few were just inspiration that hit and they came out on the paper
