part of me is thrilled
that you've texted on every platform
that you can think of
part of me wants to fall into
delusion
and tell myself no no he cares
he really cares
part of me wants to jump up
and down excitedly
because if you're trying this hard
you must love me right?
but the other parts of me
the logical ones
tell me your this focused on
getting through to me
because your ego can't stand
the thought that i might dump you
your dying to get ahold of me
not because you love me
but because you're so used
to me jumping through
every hoop you give me
on the off chance you might
continue loving me
or rather telling me you love me
i never thought i was naive
or stupid until I met you
i thought i knew what love felt like
and how loss destroys the soul
i thought i was going to
be able to handle this with ease
it's hard and im struggling
this loss is unlike
any other I've felt before
it's like a piece of me has been stolen
the most vital and essential part of me
you ripped my heart right out of my chest
threw it on the ground
in the dust and the dirt
broke it on impact
picked it up and played with it
then smashed it again
danced on the pieces
for good measure
and then left me there --alone
now your running back
like you always do
because you think
ill still be there waiting
im not waiting for a boy
who had no idea what he wants
i would have lied, or died for you
i gave so much of my life
to you
and looking back the more I gave
the more you needed
so i kept giving
until i had nothing left
i had nothing to take care of if myself
because I poured an abundance of me
into you and called it love
we might have been in love at one point
but somewhere along the way
those lines blurred till you relied on me
to give you the pieces of you
that you lacked
and I compensated
by giving to much of me
now i have nothing
and you still want more from me
i can give you no more of me
i gave it all to you
please let me be free
from you
my heart cannot handle
the imprisonment
you've forced upon me
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Things to know
Poetrythis is a poetry book filled with poems that describe how I feel about myself, and some of them describe my relationships with some people, and the last few were just inspiration that hit and they came out on the paper
