Move on (Destiel)

14. I'll be your savior

-------------------------------- Cas' POV --------------------------------------
He looked at me his eyes where so full of pain, he looked away and frowned.

"What do you want from me Cas?" He begged, I walked toward him as he walked back with every step, I frowned, he looked like a wounded animal.

"Dean, I..." I said but he interrupted me.

"No Cas, what do you want?" He almost yelled, his face was red and his eyes full of tears, I stood there open mouthed. "I thought so... I need you to leave, and don't talk to me again." He cried.

"Dean..." I said and grabbed his arm, he flinched and I saw pain in his face, I looked at him but he didn't look at me, I took his arm and rolled up the sleeve.

"Stop it" He said moving away his arm and walking to the bathroom, but I saw it.

"Dean, why would you do that?" I whispered, he sobbed and almost got to the bathroom when I ran to him and hugged him from behind, my arms surrounding his waist, and my face buried in his back.

Tears were falling by now, my chest was hurting so much, I sobbed as Dean stood there, he didn't move, he didn't flinch he just stood there shaking.

"Dean..." I sobbed in his back. "Please don't do it again and don't make me leave, I can't loose you." I stuttered pleadingly. "I need you."

He stopped breathing when those words left my mouth and I thought that's it, he is making me leave, he hates me, he...

"Why?" He uttered between sobs. "Why would you need me? I'm not Dan, and I would never be, and as much as I wish I could be like him I'm not, so why?" He mumbled and fell to the ground, I tried to hold him but he got out of my grip.

"Dean..." I said, when I looked at him he was hugging his legs and crying, it broke my heart. "Dean." I repeated sitting next to him and hugging him as strong as I could.

----------------------------------- Dean's POV --------------------------------------

He held me as I cried, I was shaking and I couldn't breath.

"Dean." he said again and everything turned black.

A while later I opened my eyes, I was in my bed, Cas was sitting in the floor next to my bed, his head in the mattress he was sleeping, his eyes were puffy and red for crying, I looked to my arm, it was bandaged, I tried to get out of bed but I didn't noticed Cas was holding my hand.

His face shot up fast and his eyes opened in shock.

"Dean, you are awake." His voice was raspy. "You were unconscious for 3 hours and I was about to take you to the hospital but called your brother first and told him, he said to leave you rest and you would be fine." His eyes were full of tears.

"Dean I'm sorry." He said standing up. "I'll leave you alone like you wanted." his voice broke in the last part. He was cleaning the tears from his face, and started leaving, I was paralyzed with shock, I heard the door closing.

"Cas..." I whispered and stood of the bed to fall on the floor. "Cas!" I tried to yell as the darkness came back.

I felt someone caressing my face, and holding my hand, my eyelids were so heavy and my body stiff.

"Oh Dean." Said a very known voice, he sounded sad. "I don't want you to be like Dan, just be yourself." He whispered as I fell into unconsciousness again.

When I opened my eyes a worried Sam and a tired Castiel were staring at me, I tried to sit holding me in my elbows but Sammy took some pillows and put them in my back so I could be comfortable.