Move on (Destiel)

41. Fucked up

-------------------------------------------------------- Dean's POV ------------------------------------------------------------

I felt all the strength in my body leaving me, I fell backwards into the floor, I barely hit my head because I was in my knees, all I could hear was the pitching noises in my brain, it was overwhelming, I felt my senses quivering at the sound and I was afraid I would loose my mind.

"Dean?" I heard his voice raising above the noise, he was like the boat in the storm, I couldn't open my eyes; a blinding light filled my pupils every time I tried. "Dean, please tell me, what is wrong? What's the problem?" He said, he sounded frustrated and I wanted to tell him about this headache and all this noises but I couldn't bring myself to make any noise.

"SAM!" He screamed as I felt a pair of arms pulling me in the bed, it was clearly Cas, I could feel the sparks in every once he touched.

"CAS?" Sam entered the room, I heard his breath catch. "What happened to Dean?" He asked, I could hear the concern in his voice, everything sounded so far away and I was trying to grip myself to reality but I could feel it slipping away between my fingers. "DEAN PLEASE STAY WITH ME!" Sam uttered shacking me a little, but it was too late.

------------------------------------------------------- Crowley's POV ---------------------------------------------------------

"You didn't tell them the implications." I heard her say, I turned around and gazed at her red hair.

"What are you doing here mother?" I hissed, I was annoyed of her already. "I thought I told you to leave and never come back again, so what do you want?" I uttered and started texting one of my demons on my cellphone.

"My little boy!" She whined and made some dramatic gestures, I rolled my eyes and turned my back to her. "My precious boy, I'm your mother and Im so proud." She said and sighed, I rolled my eyes again at her attempts of manipulate me. "Don't you want to help your mother?" She hissed.

"No, I don't want to, I see no interest or entretainment on it, so if you could please LEAVE NOW BECAUSE I DONT WANT TO SEE YOUR BLOODY FACE!" I yelled and moved my fingers pointing at the guards to take her outside.

"DONT YOU DARE FERGUS! DONT YOU DARE TO TREAT YOUR MOTHER LIKE THIS!" She yelled back and started to fight the guards back.

"IM THE BLOODY KING I CAN DO WHAT I PLEASE!" I screamed and closed the doors with my mind. "She makes me loose my mind." I said pinching my nose trying to calm myself down.

"My king," One of my stupid servants said and I moved a finger and he was flying outside of the room.

"NOT IN THE MOOD!" I yelled and left the place.

---------------------------------------------------------- Dean's POV -------------------------------------------------------------

I was roaming through a long white corridor, it had just one door and every time I tried to get closer it moved further away than before.

"SON OF A BITCH." I hissed when I tried running and almost touched it but then got out of my grasp.

"Dean." I heard, I looked around but there was no one there. "Dean." i heard the voice again but everything remained the same.

-------------------------------------------------------------- Cas' POV -------------------------------------------------------------

"What's wrong with him Cas?" Sam said looking over my shoulder, I was taking Dean's pulse, I felt his temperature, I searched in his soul but there was no sign of what was happening.

"Are you two stupid?" I hissed turning to Sam, I was furious. "Don't you understand what happens when a lower body gets this much power? We are lucky he didn't combust into dust, and now we don't know what's happening to him." I uttered as I gritted my teeth.

He looked at me with puppy eyes, he was a mess. "But wasn't there any other who have done the same?" He whispered and I rolled my eyes.

"What of we haven't been down here in thousand of years before all this you don't get? We didn't interact with humans, we didn't give them the chance to do things like this, but I had to be stupid enough to interact with you, of all humans it had to be you." I whined, I was red of anger. "Why didn't I stay in heaven?" I groaned. "You humans can't handle an angel's grace, it is possible that Dean is dying and we don't even know because I was the only stupid enough angel to let this happen."

"Cas..." He whispered, I looked at him with pain and anger in my eyes.

"No, don't you Cas me." I hissed and turned away. "You don't understand and you never will, I left everything for you and above all for your brother and I already will spend eternity in hell just for this asshole to die next week? No, no thank you, I've had enough." I said and stood up, I put a hand in Dean's head, I passed everything from him to me like I did with Sam and became invisible, making him think I left, but I was there.

I heard a groan but I was starting to feel the effects of what I did, the worst part is that this was strong enough to affect me too, and I realised that Dean only survived because of the mark and if Sam would have done it he would have died, that trace I took from Dean was damaged Grace and there's nothing more deathly than that, for angels or humans.

I saw Dean stood up and look around, his face becoming a frown when he didn't found what he was looking for.

"Where's Cas?" He groaned and strolled out the room, Sam followed him. "CAS? CAAASSS?" He was yelling my name but all I could do now was cry.

"You need to get away brother." I heard Lucifer said, I turned around and he was next to me accompanied by Gabriel. "The Winchesters are like poison, and we both are proof of that." He added looking in my eyes.

"You turned crazy because of them more than once, and I know you were crazy when all the leviathan's business happened, and thats why you killed me." Someone else said, he was behind me and I couldn't bring myself to turn around. "Don't worry brother, I love you and I forgive you, you're so dear to me that I will forgive you anything." He said as a tear fell down my cheek, I turned around and my breath caught up in my throat. "Cassie!" He whispered opening his arms.

"Balthazar!" I cried out and hugged him. "Im so sorry, I was crazy and I... Im sorry." I babbled.

"Cassie, those boys only seem to hurt you, please come with me, let me take care of you like they never did." He said cleaning my tears and rubbing my back in a calming manner.

"Indeed Im loosing my mind." I mumbled to myself following the hallucinations of my dead brothers.

"CAS!" I heard Dean scream again running into the room crying, he was sobbing, the panic attack was noticeable in his face, he could barely breath and he fell on his knees crying. "CAS PLEASE DONT LEAVE ME!" He said between sobs, it hurt me more than anything seeing him like that. "Cas, please come back, I can't loose the time I have left with you please come back." He said in my mind, he was praying for me and our bond caused it to be in my mind, it was inevitable and I couldn't block it, because that day that I raised from hell his soul was almost nonexistent, I gave him a little part of mine to complete his, and thats why I know when he is in danger, when he prays I can hear him in my mind, and thats why every time we touch I can feel the sparks, because he is my soulmate, I wasn't meant to have a soulmate but he is mine. "I love you." He prayed and my heart broke and fluttered at the same time.

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