Move on (Destiel)

49. Missing pieces

Dean's POV

"What the fuck Dean?" Sam yelled in the speeding car while Indroe as fast as I could. "What about Mika? You are just leaving him for a man we don't even know?" He added looking at me like I grew two heads.

"I don't know why Sammy but I'm so happy and I feel like he is important and that I need to find him." I said while I kissed his head and ruffled his hair, he was worried I could tell.

"Maybe it's a cursed object and it makes you do things you don't understand." Sam mumbled in mid thought.

"No Sammy it just so real, so true..." I said as we drove to a place we didn't even know.

Cas's POV

"Dean!" I yelled, maybe he wasn't my Dean but now I felt like I could really make a new life here. "My love Im waiting in the room just as you like it." I mumbled naked in the bed, I heard him laugh and my stomach flipped a little.

"I'm going just let me go get something from Charlie's" He said going out as I laid in bed staring at the ceiling, I heard the door opening again.

"That was quick my love, I bet you couldn't wait to do me..." I trailed of as the only person I never thought I would see again was in the doorway checking my naked body out.

"I'm sorry where you talking to me?" He said as a huge pain moved through my whole body and I whimpered away while covering myself with the covers.

"I have to ask you to please leave I don't know you." I said looking away as tears fell from my eyes, the pain will never leave and I can't be happy, I stood up and ran away to the door but he got there first blocking the way.

"Oh I don't think so angel, you see all around this house are photos of me and with you so please explain." He mumbled getting closer, I turned around and paced away from him. "And I think this belongs to you." He said while showing me a black feather. I looked at him and felt how everything left my body, everyone's memories and secrets.

"I'm sorry." I cried as I saw his beautiful face transform from anger to pain until there was nothing else.

"Really?" He hissed. "SORRY? Do you fucking know how bad I was without you." He half yelled, I turned around to take my clothes and leave but he took my wrist. "The fuck are you going? you are staying there and that's all I will say, we will solve this now." He yelled while hitting the wall next to me and cuffing me, when I noticed the cuff my face turned red, I can't leave, it's for angels.

"You won't fucking leave me again!" He yelled as loud as he could, he looked around and then at Castiel, he noticed the lack of clothes and that someone must be coming here soon...

"Cas my love?" Said fake Dean from downstairs.

"Dean leave, the kidnappers are here again." I yelled, he ran upstairs and I saw how Deans eyes started to water.

"Oh I see now, all this was about him and you loving him, you knew I wouldn't let you be with him and now you just erased my memories and came back to him! A FAKE ME!" He yelled at me, he started sobbing as Sam took the fake Dean outside, I could hear Sammy calming him and trying to explain everything. "It wasn't good enough making me the most miserable man alive, you had to bring me back and do it all again. Why can't you understand that you were my fucking life! If you wanted him you should have let me die!" He mumbled between sobs, this time was different, he looked drained, tired and there was nothing in his eyes, they were dead. I couldn't handle it anymore, I cried, I sobbed, I screamed and begged, I couldn't take my life anymore, I'm the most undesirable and miserable man alive, I hurt and kill the people I love, I destroyed the most beautiful creature in the the earth and all for my selfishness, but without him I'm nothing.

Deans POV

As tired as I am I couldn't ignore my beautiful angel breaking in the bed, I couldn't ignore the pain on my chest as I heard him scream my name, as I saw him loose everything he was, and right then I noticed he was worst than me, I could notice he lost weight, he had dark bags under his eyes, and his quivering lip was red and bitten, like he did when we were together and something was bothering him. My life, my hole life is in front of me and I couldn't move, I felt numb and sad, I wanted to hug him but I was so afraid, I can't loose him again, I won't.

"Cas please come back to me, I dont care if you love him more, I'll try to be like him but please, please don't leave me again." I cried falling on my knees in front of the bed, I crawled near the bed and cried into it, I was so tired, I looked at him pleadingly. "Cas, even if you hate me please come with me, let me take care of you, just live my short life next to me and then you can forget me and go back to your long eon infinite life."

"Dean" He mumbled, as I heard him many times before."You are blind, blind of how much I love you, I love you more than life itself. I ruined my whole life just for you, I will live a eon infinite life being hunted by my race just to make you happy, I will die for you if it comes to it." He grumbled, I cried out as I quickly climbed the bed and laid next to him. "I..." He whispered as I cuddle him. "I love you."

"Now Cas let me make my own choices." I told him uncuffing him. He nodded with a small smile. "Now I don't know about you but I need to rest and end a relationship that doesn't fulfill me." I said standing up and throwing him his clothes as I walked to the door.

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The end is so near I am feel it, everything is coming together as it is.