---Cas POV 4 months after Dan's death.---
My life has been a complete mess for the last 4 months, I'd been drinking to numb the pain, my hands shake because of the anxiety and the only wait to stop it is with a smoke or two, I have had a lot of panic attacks and I'm skinnier than before, I can't eat much and I can't sleep enough, The pet shop is mine but Charlie is taking care of it, I'm in no condition to do it. I pass most of my time crying, sleeping, smoking and drinking, sometimes I woke up and I can't remember where I am or what did I do the day before. My house is a mess and I feel so lonely, Otto is alright, I always feed him and wash him, he is the only stable thing in my life, when I'm crying he comes and lays next to me and I really love this dog.
"Cas, are you here?" I heard Charlie from downstairs. "Your house is a mess," she said while coming upstairs, she looked at me. "You are a mess."
"Yeah." I mumbled and tried to sit but I was too drunk to make it.
"Okay, this has to stop," she said leaving the room, I closed my eyes and heard some footsteps coming closer. "you can't keep moping around and feeling sorry for yourself." She was holding something I could hear something above me and then I knew, lots of water splashed my face sobering me up and waking me, I was coughing and mad.
"What is wrong with you?" I yelled at her. she was standing there pouting, her red hair was short now and she had her hands on her hips.
"Yell all you want, now go take a shower and clean up, shave please and we are going out." she said throwing me some towels, a razor and a soap. "Now."
I stood up and did what I was told, it felt nice being clean again and I felt calmness fill my body, I dressed in a plain black shirt and jeans.
"So... what now?" I said walking to the room.
"We are going shopping." she said and smiled, I tried to return the smile but I couldn't, Charlie pretended that she didn't saw that and took her bag and keys. "You need to light up this place, and yourself. maybe a makeover, we can paint your hair red so we can be like brother and sister!" She said and giggled, I chuckled too because it was funny picturing me like that.
"Maybe. But I want new clothes." I said and smiled lightly, she noticed and smiled really big.
"What are we waiting for? Let's go get em'." She took my hand and drag me to her car.
I have to admit she did cheer me up and I decided that Dan wouldn't want this for me, so I decided to start again at least with work and friends.
We bought clothes and some things in hot topic, we bought books and some series like Sense8 and Hannibal, we are there and then we talked a lot.
She took me home and stayed to help me clean up the mess.
"Thanks for helping me and coping with me, you are the best." I said and blushed. she laughed and kissed my cheek.
"You are my bestie, obviously I would be here, I decided to give you space and let you cope in your own way but it was too much so I needed to take you out and cheer you up." she smiled, her eyes were full with love, like motherly love and she hugged me. "You deserve a life full of happiness but first you have to pass through the storm. Now that all this" she gestured to my house, "it's clean, let's watch a movie and have a sleepover." I nodded and followed her to my room.
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