---------------------------------------------------- Cas' POV ----------------------------------------------------
I went crazy, my body felt limp, and I felt so empty and alone.
"Cas, I'm going out, do you want something?" Sam said, he looked terrible, his eyes were red of crying, his hair messy and he hadn't shaved since that day.
"Vodka." I grumbled, he nodded and walked away from my door.
"I'll be back in an hour maybe." He yelled and I heard the door closing. This was my moment to fix everything, I looked for the things I needed in his supplies closet, I took vervain, a white lamb knee bone, a bat's wing, a demons nail and some unspeakable things for the ritual.
I took everything to Dean's room and put them in his usual gun bag, I zapped into heaven trying to not get caught and stole the sacred book, I heard the sirens turning on, and I zapped away into the place where everything started, I will remember, but they won't, I know I shouldn't do this but maybe, just maybe this way they can be happy.
I started mixing the elements, I chanted and turned on Dean's lighter and throw it in the cup.
"A pleasure my dear Castiel." A woman said, her long white hair long to her feet, her blue/gray eyes boring into my soul, she tilted her head with a soft smile on her face. "I'm Samea, I'm time and space itself, I'm mother of everything and anything, and you have a request for me." She spoke in a low calming voice, her face remained peaceful.
"How did you know I was coming?" I shot annoyed and she giggled.
"My dear Castiel, I know everything, I knew you would meet those nice boys, I knew everything from Hitler to the end of myself." She mumbled cold and mysterious, I wondered if she could tell me about my future or their future. "I know what you are thinking and I'm sorry but I can't, it's not in my power to tell you, I talked to your father a long time ago and he took all of my sons and daughters away so I wouldn't say anything." She uttered grim.
"What? You have sons and daughters?" I asked confused and the bad feelings long gone.
"Yes Castiel, your father is my partner, he didn't create me nor I him, we simply existed together." She was, even if that sounded strange she was, she existed and I could feel that more than anything. "Your father took you, all of you away from me." Her breath got caught in her throat.
"That's a lie." I spatted and she denied it with her head.
"Not a lie my child, the complete truth, and I'm sorry about how you kids grew up and I'm most sorry about your stupid father leaving." She shushed me.
"Wait, you are saying that all those times father told me I was like my mother he wasn't just playing with that human quote but it was true?" I questioned, she laughed and nodded.
"You are indeed like me and I would have done everything you did, you always did everything for the great her good, sometimes you failed but you never stopped trying, you found a family and protected it, by the way I like the boy, he is nice but just a little bit arrogant, and I'm really proud of you." She said coming closer to me and caressed my cheek. "You are so like me I'm really happy."
"If you are our mother why don't you go to heaven and help us, it's chaos now that father left." I mumbled pouting.
"I'm sorry my child but that's not possible." She whispered in my ear and turned away from me.
"wHY NOT?" I shouted sad and angry. "We are your sons, your family! What about all this speech about protecting and loving? About doing the right thing?" I cried loudly, she didn't turn around.
"You don't understand..." She whined, and walked to a lonely throne in the end of the room.
"Explain then." I stated and sat in the floor.
"I can't leave this place, not without a consequence. If I leave earth will be over, the universe will end and all those lives will end for my selfishness." Her face fell. "When your father took you from me he tricked me into bounding me into this place, he tricked me into this and I will never forgive him, he took you away and left me without a choice, I have all those lives in my hands and I can't just dismiss them. The thing is if I leave Heaven and Hell will be fine but all that's in between would be over in a blink of an eye."
"Woah, you were right, that was a freaking a lot." I mumbled.
"And again Castiel I know what you are thinking, the only one who knew about me was your brother Lucifer, he is so reckless, he talked to your father about me and asked him to end everything and let me out, I was totally agains it for different reasons that your father, she he castes Lucifer away from heaven and caging him on hell, the problem is that when he came out he tried everything possible to let me out but the only way was the apocalypse, the end of the world and universe."
"So lucifer did everything for you?" I asked dazed and she nodded lost in her memories.
"He was a great child, he was just needed of love and really curious."she confessed me. "Now back to business, you want me to turn back time on earth so you can change Dean's future?" I nodded and she looked at me confused.
"You sure?" She asked again and I wondered if this was really what I wanted.
A/N
I'm sorry I'm just so tired and kind of sick.'
Love F.xx
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