My little sunshine

Chapter 19: Uncertainty

Warning: this chapter contains the feels, and the next chapter will contain the big midpoint of the story. And yes I am a Blinky x Aaarrrgghh shipper 

I can't wait for you guys to see what I have in store for the story going forward.

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( a few hours later)

Bular was starring out of the window waiting for the sun to go down so that he can finally get some fresh air. If there was one thing Bular needed more at this very moment that would be something, Anything to clear his mind from all of the voices in his head. As Bular looked down towards the whelp, Bular thought it would also do some good to take the whelp outside for a night walk to get the little one some fresh air ... and to get outside of the lair for the first time in awhile.

The second that the sun set over the horizon Bular got up from his seat and gently picked the whelp up and held the little one close to his chest making sure that the whelp was still asleep. Bular then made his way towards the forest and started walking around some of his more secluded alley ways in the town of Arcadia oaks to reach his destination.

After reaching the forest, Bular was in the middle of rethinking some of his... original plans for how to handle the future moving forward when he heard a familar voice... a voice that he hasn't heard in the past 900 years.

" Blinky wait, we... we can try again"

" Aaarrrgghh, Please I don't want to talk about. It's pointless to keep denying the truth any longer I'm... I'm sorry"

Bular was at a loss of words as he hid behind a conveniently sized rock to avoid getting spotted by Aaarrrgghh and Blinky. On the one hand Bular felt a little guilt listening in on the private conversation between the two trolls, But on the other hand Bular was now in a tight spot being essentially trapped behind his hiding spot now that he had to choose either risk getting spotted by the two in the midst of his escape or be forced to wait and listen until Blinky and Aaarrrgghh finally leave the area.

As the argument between the couple went on Bular started to ponder more of the decisions that he was considering for his... the whelp's future. From what Bular had gathered, Blinky and Aaarrrgghh are apparently a mated couple and have now gotten to the part of their lives where they both desire to have whelps of their own But it seams that they are having... difficulties conceiving to the point where Blinky is convinced that there is a problem with him.

The whelp in Bular's arms started to squirm due to having his sleep disturbed by the sudden noise. Bular was doing his best to get the whelp to settle down while staying quiet at the same time and felt an indescribable sense of relief seeing the whelp going going back to sleep without drawing attention to themselves.

After Blinky and Aaarrrgghh managed to reconcile with each other, Bular stared at the couple as they left presumably to return to Trollmarket as an idea popped into his head. If he... If he truly wanted what was best for the whelp then he... he... he has no choice but give the whelp up. 

"It's for the best... the whelp can live in peace, in safety, and be loved by a family who will care for him as one of their own... It's for the best... Blinky and Aaarrrgghh would make far better caregivers then he ever could... the whelp can get better , It's for the best... it's for the best... right? "

These thoughts flooded Bular's mind as he trekked back to his lair. If he wanted to in act his new plan he needed time to prepare... and to cherish the pleasant moments with the whelp one last time. Although Bular had thought out most of the plan by the time he made it back home there was one thing that was bothering him long after he placed the whelp into his "crib" ... why won't he stop crying.