Divergent No war... Yet.

Chapter 17

Chapter 17

Four's POV:

I did it. I finally did it. I kissed her and I couldn't be happier.

She breaks the kiss and we are both breathing heavy. I faintly hear the noise of the water crashing onto the rocks but my mind is still on the kiss we just shared. I remember that when I first met her, I wondered how would it feel to kiss those lips. Now I've got the answer.

- Tris - I call. Her head snaps up. I guess she must have been thinking hard about something.

- Yeah, Four ?

- Would you do me the honor of becoming my girlfriend? - I timidly ask, not sure if the kiss meant the same for her as it did for me.

- Humm - She says, then a playful smirk appears on her face - I'll tell you tomorrow.

Well, that's better than a no but I know I won't be able to sleep at all thinking about what her answer will be.

She stands up and I follow her. We keep walking until we find a crossway, we part ways because her apartment it's located on the opposite side of the compound from mine. She waves and walks, more like limps, through the hallway. I am tempted to help her but I know she needs time to think. I start walking towards my place. I wonder what will she say. She said she is broken, what does she mean by that?

And also, should I tell her my name? I inmediately shake my head at the thought. She would look at me with pity and that...that would break me even more. I know that she must have read the erudite newspapers. She would know about Marcus and I can't afford that.

In no time I get to my apartment and lay down on the couch. My eyelids feel heavy and I start to drift away from reality. I guess I will be able to sleep after all.

I wake up startled looking at my surroundings. My living room was the same except for some clothes laying on the floor.

I take a quick shower and get dressed in my usual outfit: black pants, T-shirt and shoes. I go outside and makd my way to Tris' apartment but then it hits me: she was traveling to abnegation today.

I find mysefl hoping that maybe she did not go because of her twisted ankle so with thought in mind I head towards the dinning hall, hoping to find her there. I enter and my eyes inmediatly wander to her usual table. I see her friends laughing (even Uriah is there with his hand around Marlene's shoulders) but no trace of Tris.

I grab a muffin and head back to my apartment. Once I get there I take out a paper sheete and start thinking war strategies just like Max asked me to but I can't seem to focus. My thoughts keep going back to those beautiful blue gray eyes. I need to keep my mind off her. O can havd my hopes high becausd when she gets back I could end up being the happiest man alive or the saddest.

I exit my apartment and makd my way to the fear landscapes. People would call me crazy for doing this, going through my fear landscape again and again but I have the hope that maybe my fears have changed, an especific one.

I put the needle on my neck. I don't feel it anymore, I am used to it by now, at least I am not afraid of needles. I stand there alone in the empty room and everything goes black.

I exit the room panting and slide down the wall onto a crouching position, my head on my hands, pulling my hair with enough force to make it hurt but not to leavd myself bald. Nothing changed, nothing except for one thing. When I had to shoot the woman it was no normal girl...it was Tris.

I felt my heart be torn apart when I shot her and saw her lifeless body fall. That was worse than facing dozens of Marcus beat me. I stay there, with my back on the wall until my breath is even. I feel my stomach rumbling and notice that it's already 1:00 pm. Time for lunch.

I stand up and make my way to the dinning hall, grab my lunch and take a seat next to Zeke.

- Hey Four! - He greets me while clapping me on my back - where have you been? I haven't seen you in a week!

In that moment I feel bad for ignoring my friends.

- Just doing some work - I answer - I am a leader now.

Zeke laughs and takes a bite of his hamburger.

- Of course, I understand - he say once he has swallowed.

- And what about you? how have you been on the control room? ? - I am seriously curious about it, I have to admit that I kinda miss my previous job.

- Naaa I am good but it's not the same without you there, my friend. Ok now that sounded gay.

I let out a laugh and Zeke looks at me wide eyed.

- Y-you l-laughed? - He stutters. - You never laugh! what has gotten into you? - He looks at me with squinted eyes.

- Nothing - I say, with my Four face on. I hate doing this, shutting mysefl out but it is to protect me. I am still not sure about letting Tris in.

- Is it that girl? Tris? - He asks and my head snaps towards him. His smile widens - I knew it!.

- I don't know what you're talking about - I say, my voice and favd void of emotion.

Zeke opens his mouth to reply when the doors burst open and she enters. Her blond hair falls all the way to her waist like a water fall, the tips dyed purple (weren't they blue?). She is wearing dark skinny pants with off the shoulder long sleeved shirt. It's the most concervatived outfit I have seen her wear. Oh she went to abnegation. She has little make up still she looks beautiful as ever.

Zeke snaps his fingers to call my atention and a big smirk appears on his face.

- Shut up - I say. Tris start making her way towards me with resolution in her eyes. I am amazed by the fact that she twisted her ankle and is wearing heels!.

She is now standing in front of me and I stand so we are on the same level. By now the whole cafeteria is silent looking at our exchange.

- So? - I ask, with what I think is hope in my voice. She shakes her head and looks at the ground while I feel my insides shatter.

Suddenly she grabs my face in her hands and crash her lips onto mine, moving them with passion. I fiercely kiss back but too soon it ends. I can hear the gasps all around us.

- Yes - She says, turns around and walks away, slighly swaying her hips. I notice the glares full of jelousy that girls and guys send Tris' and my way respectively.

- What was that!? - Zeke yells, staring at me with eyes like plates.

- That - I say with a smile I can't contain - was my girlfriend.

The ones sitting close to us gasp and start whispering between themselves while zeke smiles and pats me on the back, congratulating me. A few people come close to pat me on the back or shake my hand but I can't focus on anything but Tris, my girlfriend.

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Yeah I am sick again :( boooo I had a 39 degrees fever. Don't know how much is that in Farenheit.

Enjoy Fourtris!