Broken soulmates (bxb)

Chapter 16

Darius pov

It was late in the evening when I arrived home. My mood hadn't gotten any better and only thing I wanted to do was to march right up to Alpha Gregor and slaughter him, Kane wasn't in any better shape and he took control as soon as we got out of the car.

"Kane! Give control back to me right now!"

No answer and I couldn't force him either. Kane just continued on his way inside the packhouse. I just have to hope no one-

"Darius! You're back. How was the meeting? What did they say? When-" A loud bang echoed through the empty hall and Asher's typical babble was cut short as Kane pushed him against the wall and growled.

"K-Kane. I'm sorry I bothered you." Asher looked down and bared his neck. He also knows that you can't fool around when Kane is mad.

"Kane for fucks sake! I know you're mad so am I but it's Asher! Our only family member. Let go of him!" I shouted to Kane and after a long tense moment he loosened his grip on Asher and without saying a word continued on his way towards our room.

It was a miracle that the door stayed on its hinges when Kane flung the door open and slammed it back shut. Our mate sat on the bed and looked at us questioningly. He is so perfect. His large violet eyes showed understanding and soon turned to pity. And that's when Kane lost it.

He went raging around the room destroying everything he could get his hands on.

"Kane stop it! You're scaring our mate!" I yelled at him.

"Really!? Look at him! He doesn't even look scared!" Kane yelled back but soon he let a quiet whimper as we looked at Fionn. Kane retreated somewhere in my mind.

And sure enough Fionn was still sitting on the bed, completely calm, watching our collapse. He is so used to any kind of violence that this is nothing new to him.

My breathing was heavy, tears burning my eyes as I tried to stop them from falling. My heart breaks for my beautiful mate. I sank to the floor and hid my face in my hands.

"It's so unfair.." I whispered to myself.

I was so focused on my negative thoughts that I didn't notice Fionn coming next to me until I felt him touch my hand. I raised my head and looked at him through my tears. I don't mind showing vulnerability in front of him.

"I'm so sorry.." I said and he gave me a sad smile and touched my face.

"There's nothing you need to apologize for. You couldn't have known." He answered.

"You deserved so much more.. You still deserve so much more. And you deserve a better mate, I'm a monster." I removed his hand from my scarred face, again feeling ashamed of my appearance and tried to hide my face.

Fionn put his hand under my chin and lifted my head back up.

"Your appearance does not define you. Both your scars and mine tell a story, a story of what we have experienced and what we have survived. I see through your scars, I see who you really are. And you are not the monster in my story." He answered decisively and I let out a deep sigh.

"I've killed. A lot." I confessed to him but his essence remained the same.

"We're werewolves. I don't think there's an Alpha that wouldn't kill to defend his pack." He said, looking at me questioningly.

"I have killed feral rogues only to control my anger." I tried to make him realize that I'm not as good as he thinks.

"The way I see it, you've done that too for being a good Alpha to your pack." He answered.

"I like it. Violence and killing." I said and finally he hesitated but only for a moment.

"And yet you only do it to protect your pack." He smiled. I obviously can't win this argument. We stared at each other silently in the middle of the destroyed room and suddenly I noticed how close our faces were.

"The Council is on my side. I will avenge you." I said.

He sighed. "I know."

"Can I kiss you?" I blurted and could have hit myself if Fionn hadn't smiled shyly.

"I- I've never kissed anyone.." He answered and glanced at my lips. That was encouraging enough for me and I leaned closer until our lips touched.

The kiss was short, shy and tender. Just perfect for this moment.

I pulled away but left my forehead against his. I opened my eyes and smiled. Fionn smiled too but his eyes were still closed.

"It was perfect." He whispered and opened his eyes.

"Yeah it was. Come on let's go to sleep." I told him and we stood up.

"Well it looks like the bed is the only thing Kane didn't destroy. Come sleep next to me?" Fionn asked and even though I was excited I was worried if he really wanted it.

"Are you sure? I can go to a different room and-"

"Darius shut up and come to sleep." Fionn interrupted me and directed us to the bed. We took off our clothes and went to brush our teeth. In the end we lay in bed and just looked at each other.

"I want to give this a chance." Fionn said suddenly.

"Really?" I asked with a big smile on my face.

"Yes. Neo gave me the encouragement I needed and I realized there was no point in fighting this bond. We were made to each other and you have been so good to me." He said and I caught him in my arms.

"Thank you Fionn. I know that I still have a lot to improve in myself to be the best mate for you. I thank the Moon Goddess for choosing you as my mate. And thank you for deciding to give me a chance."

Fionn buried his head in my neck.

"I will always choose you." He whispered.

I smiled and kissed his hair.

"Good night Fionn."

"Good night Darius."