Broken soulmates (bxb)

Chapter 2

Darius pov

I hung my head and let the water run down my back. I'm so tired of this shit. The emptiness inside me gnaws at me every day and the nightmares don't let me sleep properly. When will they end? How long do I have to live again when my mom.. I shook my head, I don't want to drift into thinking about it again.

I turned the temperature down and enjoyed how the tingling of the cold water on my skin distracted me from where my thoughts were going.

After showering, I put on my clothes and went in front of the mirror. Only goddess knows how much I hate that I look exactly like my father. Same light brown hair and chocolate brown eyes. Or one eye, the left eye is light blue due to blindness. On the same side of my face, a jagged scar runs from my hairline to my cheek and of course over my eye.

I ran my fingers along the scar. At least it makes me look like the monster many describe me to be. What can I say I know I'm always angry and often rude. But a monster? It must be mostly because of my grumpy wolf.

"Hey! I saved your life. You should be grateful." My wolf ​​Kane growled at me.

"I know, I know. Sometimes I just think that maybe it would have been better if I had died." I replied staring at my reflection. Kane didn't answer anything anymore but disappeared somewhere in my mind.

Kane is a wolf of few words but I know he cares about me. Our relationship has always been special. While werewolves usually transform at 16 Kane forced the transformation when I was only 12 and as he said he did it to save me. From my own father.

My father was not a good father. He never said he loved me or showed me any kind of affection. He was strict and merciless when he taught me to fight, when he tried to mold me into something I am not. But thanks to those skills, I have defeated everyone who has dared to challenge me.

I shook my head again and scolded myself. I don't want to spend a second of the day thinking about my father. I hated him and still do.

A familiar feeling of rage took hold of me. He always gets me mad. It's an insurmountable feeling that I've learned to release in only one way, rogue hunting.

Kane and I search neutral territory for our target, chase and kill it. Brutal I know, but it's the only way I can control my emotions and not take out my bad feelings on the members of the pack, at least not all of it. However, we have learned to be more reasonable with our target. When I was 14, I got the longest scolding of my life from uncle Shane because of the rogues I killed, so after that I've always looked for a target that has already lost its humanity. There is no going back for them.

Still agitated, I styled my hair and left my room. On my way to the kitchen, the members of the pack showed me respect by greeting and bowing but nothing else. I'm their Alpha, their leader. I keep them safe and make sure that everything is good in my pack, but I don't need friends. I'm fine alone and everyone respects that except one person.

"Darius!" I rolled my eyes and continued walking. I quickly grabbed my breakfast and headed to my office. I heard him running after me.

"Darius! Damn it, wait for me!"

"I'm not in the mood to deal with you right now Asher. What do you want?" I replied, slowing my pace. Asher grinned.

"Oh I don't know, maybe help my Alpha cousin since I'm his beta?"

"And every day I regret that decision." I replied bored.

"Nooo you don't. You love me and you know it yourself." I didn't answer but slapped him on the head and went to my desk.

"Oww. You're mean." He complained.

"You can always go do something other than bother me." I said and quickly ate my breakfast. I glanced at Asher, who was already in full swing.

He is the only family member I have and he looks so much like his dad Shane. Asher has blonde hair and blue eyes, he is a goofy guy and always positive. You would never believe that we are related.

But he's right, I love him and will do everything in my power to protect him.

"When we're ready I'll go visit neutral territory, you can take care of the pack in the meantime." I told him and refocused on my work.

"Again? Are you sure it's necessary." He asked and I can hear the same judgmental tone his dad used on me.

"Yes it is unless you want me to lose my temper here." I answered without looking at him.

"And when you find your mate, are you going to continue even then?" My gaze snapped on him and I narrowed my eyes at him.

"My mate? I'm 28 and I haven't found my mate, maybe I don't even have one. Besides, everything good is dying around me so I'm better off alone."

Fuck, it hurts even to think that I wouldn't find my mate, my other half. But I'm one big mess, why would anyone want me. I scoffed and looked away when I saw a look on Asher's face that I despised. Pity, I don't need anyone's pity.

"Darius. Your parents death wasn't your fault. Well maybe your father's since you killed him-" I growled at him warningly.

"Oh shut up, someone needs to knock some sense into your head. It wasn't your fault! And neither was my dad's death. You need to understand that." Asher said.

"Your dad died because I was challenged for the position of Alpha! It's my fault!" I yelled at him.

"Luna of the defeated Alpha killed him! Not you, and no one would have guessed that! And you killed that bitch and avenged my dad's death!" He yelled back. I gritted my teeth so that I won't explode at him.

"Let's agree to disagree." I growled at him.

"Fine you grumpy bastard."

"You're lucky you're my cousin or you'd be dead by now. So how's Victoria doing?" I asked and buried the previous conversation.

"Smooth Darius. We're doing great, I love her so much." Asher said dreamily.

"And what do you intend to do when you find your own mate?" I asked. Asher's smile disappeared.

Victoria is not Asher's mate but they have been together for a couple of years since Victoria lost her mate. We find our mates at the earliest at the age of 18. Asher and Victoria are both 24 years old.

"Well we've talked about it and we know how the bond works, so we took a conscious risk. It's hard for me to believe that anyone else would be better for me than Victoria." He thought.

"Let's hope for the best. I'm going now." I said and left before he could say anything else.

Time for rogue hunting.