Broken soulmates (bxb)

Chapter 13

Little one's pov

I looked at the disappearing figure of Darius and felt sad for him. Maybe I could get him to go and talk to Leah, he clearly needs help like I do.

It's so strange and scary when the numbness starts to wear off and different feelings come back.

I returned to the rose bush and closed my eyes. I enjoyed all the flashes of memory that the plant gave me. I can't see clear pictures, but this garden contains a wide range of happy feelings.

Darius said this is mine now. I looked around the garden until I saw a storage building. I found all the necessary tools with which I can start reviving the garden.

I started with Darius' mother's favorite rose bush. I picked up all the trash and pulled the weeds. I used my energy to revive the bush so that years of neglect didn't show in it at all.

I continued this for as long as I could until I had to rest. I smiled widely even though I was completely exhausted. I have missed the outdoors and nature so much.

Suddenly I felt my connection to Neo grow stronger.

"Neo?"

"I'm here.. B-but I'm still weak.." Neo replied and I laughed out loud. He's fine! Our time here has also strengthened my wolf side.

"I'm so happy you're okay Neo! I've missed you." I answered emotionally.

"I'm s-sorry I wasn't with you-"

"No! It wasn't your fault but now we are free and together again." I told him and I could have cried with happiness.

"We have a mate.." Neo said. Smiling I rolled my eyes at the wolves and their mates.

"Yes, Alpha Darius and his wolf Kane but I've been a pretty hard case for them.. I've had a hard time trusting anyone even though it was our mate who saved us." I answered.

"That Alpha Darius? The monster?" Neo asked worriedly.

"That's him but don't worry he may have short temper but he's not a monster, He's.. Pretty nice." I said, embarrassed by my own thoughts towards Darius. He is more than nice.

"Okay, I can't wait to meet them." Neo said.

"Of course you can meet them but I don't know if anything will come of this. I don't know if you know everything that happened to us over the years, but I'm no longer worthy to be anyone's mate.." I told him and I wanted nothing more than to hide behind numbness again.

"I saw your memories and I'm sorry I couldn't be with you.. But our mate, I need our bond to grow stronger. Remember what mom always said about mates?" Neo asked and pain hit my chest. Of course I remember.

Mate is a blessing. Always remember that the Moon Goddess creates for us a mate that completes us. Your mate is the light in your darkness, the missing piece of you.

No. I don't want to think about them. I tried hard to fight the memories and thoughts that tried to surface and because of this I was scared to death when Darius was suddenly next to me.

"Shit! I'm sorry! I called your name but you didn't respond. I didn't mean to scare you." Darius said in a panic.

When I got my heart settled and my thoughts back in order, I looked at him as if I were seeing him for the first time.

I do understand why many people call him a monster, both in terms of character and appearance. The scar on his face is big and jagged and the blind eye only accentuates the damage.

However, I see the person behind the scar and I have seen that he can also be affectionate. Should I dare to trust him like Neo wants me to?

"Little one?" Darius asked and I remembered staring at him like a fool.

"Ah, sorry. I was lost in my thoughts. Is it time to go?" I asked, looking at the garden.

"Unfortunately. We must prepare. Did you like being here?" He too was looking at the garden and I could feel his sadness.

"I love being here. Thank you Darius." I replied and smiled at him.

We started walking back inside when Neo tiredly reminded me to tell him that he is back.

"Oh umm my wolf came back while I was in the garden. I believe that the strengthening my other side also helped him." I said and looked at Darius whose eyes widened.

"That's great! What is his name? Kane gives me a headache with his enthusiasm." Darius replied and I chuckled a little.

"I like your laugh. I hope to hear more of it someday." He smiled at me and I felt shy.

"Thank you. His name is Neo. He's still weak and tired, but I'm glad I got him back." I answered and opened the door to his room, or I guess it's already our room.

"When he's strong enough Kane wants to meet him. But now let's wash up and get ready for the evening. You can go first." He said and I nodded.

I undressed in the bathroom and took a quick shower. Darius went into the shower after me and I was going to choose clothes when I stopped in front of the mirror.

I looked a little healthier. I have gained some extra pounds and the connection with nature really restored my strength. I listened carefully that Darius is still in the shower and gathered my courage.

I put down the towel and turned to look at my back through the mirror. Looking at it quickly I couldn't even count how many scars cover my back and I know they won't go away. What a mess. For years I have not cared what happens to me or what kind of marks has been left on me, but now.. I feel ashamed because of how I look. I feel shame and disgust for what has been done to me. Fucking feelings..

I threw the towel back around me and chose the clothes I wanted. I can feel sorry for myself later. I got dressed and sat on the bed to wait for Darius.

When he got out of the shower I was surprised by how shamelessly I observed his body and that it turned me on. Mate bond that's what it is.

Darius complimented how I looked and I have to admit that I liked it when I got compliments from my mate.

"Shall we go?" He asked, offering his hand.

I looked at his hand and smiled. I noticed again that I didn't hesitate for a moment when I grabbed it.

"Yes. I'm ready."