Poems of a Lost Girl

Dear Darling:

Dear darling:

It's been a few days since we split up, and I can't stand it.

I keep praying you'll come back to me, but at the same time I am not sure I want you to.

I met a girl today, she seems nice, but she is nothing like you. It's cold outside, but she helped be escape from everything for a bit as we walked through the forest in her back yard for a bit. I don't know if i'll see her again, she's dying.

Dear darling:

It's been a week since you left me.

I can't talk to my boyfriend, or kiss him. Because you made me feel so sick about my body and my love. I stopped eating, and I hardly sleep. I cry all the time. I tried to tell our mutual friend what happened but as you are aware he took your side too. I feel so alone, it's so cold and the nights are so long. I miss you. I love you, I need you back please come back. I'll do anything. I just want you. I'll change who I am, I'll wear less black and stop cursing! I'll go to church, I'll be a new girl. I'll do anything if I can have you back. Please. I need you. I miss you... I miss us. I miss your family I spent seven years with you!! I spent seven years with you... Doesn't that matter? Don't I matter?

What happened to us... Is this really all my fault?

Dear. .Darling..

Its been three weeks since you left me.

I don't do much anymore, my family is starting to worry. I just got out of the shower, and spent an hour on the bathroom floor bleeding. It was so much blood. I just couldn't stop thinking about how much you hurt me. My boyfriend is asleep he doesn't know. They should heal by summer, and he shouldnt find out anytime soon because I wont let him see me without being fully clothed anymore. Thanks for that again, our relationship is falling apart thanks to you. I am losing everything.

My beloved darling.

it's been a month since you left me.

I just took a few pain killers for this migraine.. I am getting them a lot more frequently, its kinda annoying... My social anxiety is still pretty bad, so I don't go out anymore. I tried to have a sleep over but it ended horribly. My heart keeps acting up.. But i'm sure I am fine.

I miss you, I wish you would just come back. . I check your social media all the time to make sure you're okay...

Dear fucking dillhole

I hate you.. You know that? fuck you. Fuck everything about you.

Its been two months since you left me.

I don't eat as much as I used to, but that's okay. I just got home from my boyfriends, we spent the whole day naked together because I am a fucking whore. I don't care though, I love him you self righteous bitch. We were talking today, and he says he wants to marry me. So fuck you. You'll probably die alone because you're such a stuck up priss that you can't even handle a fucking kiss without thinking its disgusting or inappropriate. Also, I bought new fucking thongs, because I LIKE being sexy, and they match my garter-belt. I wore them with a dress that hardly covered my thighs!!! WOW IM SUCH A SLUT. fuck you.

Dear darling baby:

Its been four months since you left.

I got to break your heart all over again today, while you were on vacation and it felt great. I could nearly hear you crying as I watched the blood drip down my legs. I hate you, with every fiber in my body.