All Or Nothing

Digging Deep

                            •RONNIES POV•

We get inside the house and I tell cyrus I was running to the bathroom real quick. I quickly jog to the bathroom and lift the toilet seat up , letting everything release . After I get done I wash my hands and go back towards the living room where I didn't see Cyrus , I noticed the balcony door hanging open so I figured that's where she was. I go to the kitchen and look for that first aid kit I brought while I was in Atl , from when my brother and I fought.

I stare at it before finally grabbing it and walking out to the balcony. I see Cyrus sitting with her back against the wall on the cold ground drinking out the bottle. "You should probably stop drinking , at least till I clean up your wound" she takes another big chug and put the bottle down. I just know she's drunk. She starts to laugh "Oh shit I forgot I had another blunt" she said touching her ear. "Can I clean your cut? I don't want it to get infected" I say.

She doesn't say anything just pulls her shirt off . I walk over to her and sit next to her , "Shit I should've turned the porch light on" I say and she shakes her head "It's better , off." She simply says and I nod I could see but not how I wanted but I guess it will do for her stubborn self I thought to myself. I open up the kit and grab some gulls , alcohol wipes and tape.

"Wanna smoke?" She says and I nod as I open up the
Alcohol wipes and move closer "I'm shocked bam would try to harm you.." I finally say as I began to softly dap at the wound I realized it was a little deeper than I thought "I know.. I am too , to be honest with you" she finally says after a while, I get out the small stitch kit that was inside the box .

"What are you doing with that?" She says after inhaling the blunt "You need a few stitches" I say looking into her sadden eyes. "No I don't just patch it up!" She shouts a little loud , I shook my head "I'm telling you right now your gonna need stitches a few patches won't help you".. I simply reply. She looks at me and rolls her eyes "You wanna do it?" I say as I hold the needle and thread out "Nah , just make it quick" she says looking away as she smokes.

I begin to put the thread inside the needle and insert it into the top of the womb "Does it hurt?" She shakes her head "Okay" I say , she tries to pass me the blunt and I laugh "I got your blood on my hands" I say after finishing the first stitch. Without saying anything she holds it up to my face and I take a hit coughing as I exhale , "Was I really being a dickhead tonight?" She says looking at me as she continues to hold the blunt out for me to smoke.

I nod my head and she rolls her eyes and snatches the blunt from my lips "Well you asked!" I say as I stab into her skin with the needle she chuckles "Bitch you did that on purpose, chill out folks" she says getting a little serious now , that kinda scared me so I went as gentle as I possibly could.

"I uh- I'm sorry .. for ruining your night.." she says without looking at me. I shrug my shoulders "To be honest with you, that party was ass for real I was ready to go.." I simply reply. "I feel like every time we go out it always something" Cyrus says and I nod my head in agreement. "Did You really almost killed him?" I ask her , "I don't know.. maybe" she says taking another hit.

"You would've felt bad afterwards" I said as I finish her last stitch I get the scissors and cut the thread.
"Only for bam .. but fuck that she shot at me! This the second time" Cyrus says , asI finish up I wipe my hands with some fresh alcohol wipes before putting everything back into the kit ,Then I head into the crib to go wash my hands. After I get done I decided to go back on the balcony to chill with Cyrus.

"I feel like like I wanna kill Bam" she says taking the bottle and taking a small sip ".. I mean I feel like Bam was dead wrong for shooting at you, thank god you aren't badly injured.." I say , coming to the realization she could've been like Andy tonight had bam not know what she was doing I thought to myself. "What should I do? - I mean -what would you do if you were in my boat?" Cyrus says...

                              •CYRUS POV•

"Well I-I'm not sure.. I guess I would ask myself why
Would she try to shoot me before tryna break it up with her actual fucking hands" Ronnie said sounding a little mad about the situation. "Me and bam always exchange words back and forth but it was never like this- she never shot me like I was some random ass nigga off the streets!" I say putting my head back against the cold wall.

"Well maybe she's jealous of you" Ronnie says picking the blunt up off the ground and sparking it as she sits down right next to me and I can smell her cologne, it smelled really good I thought to myself. "What you say?" I say not hear a word she said just now. She slightly turns her head my way as she blows out the smoke , I follow her gaze and noticed she was staring down at a man who was walking his dog "I said maybe she's jealous of you" she says repeating herself.

I laugh a little loud "Why the fuck would Bam Bam be jealous of ME?" I say in between laughing and she looks at me a giggles a little "Why wouldn't she be" she says with a serious face , I stop laughing once I realized she was serious "Bam is not jealous of me" I say turning my body so that I'm facing Ronnie , she leans back and turns her head towards me "Okay" she says sarcastically as she passes me the blunt I take a hit .

We both sit in silence for a few seconds before I finally as Ronnie "What made you think that?" She smiles big enough so that her teeth were showing , she looked like a child in the moment "Finally you asked the million dollar question" Ronnie says and I chuckle . "Since I've been here and hanging with you guys I swear to god I peeped how Bam moves.. don't get me wrong she cool as fuck but she got issues fassure" Ronnie says and I nod my head for her to proceed and she does.

She goes on to tell me how bam basically wants to be me "Obviously you hood famous , you made a name for ya self , you got a good head on your shoulders -minus the temper" she says and we both laugh . "I don't know Ronnie .. that just sounds crazy , bam got her own good life nobody couldn't even stand being in my brain for 10 seconds let alone my shoes... I'm sure everyone is happy where they at" I say passing her the blunt "So why you think she did that?" Ronnie says after taking a big hit.

"Mm I think she knew I'd kill him with no remorse.."
I say as I take another chug of the bottle . I definitely was drunk but wasn't gonna tell Ronnie that , I always try to keep my composure. She grabs the bottle out my hand "Your gonna have a hangover if you keep going.." she says as she takes a chug.

"You not my momma bitch" I say taking it back from her "Mhm and Good thing I'm not! But your in my house Bitch so what I say Goes" Ronnie says as she snatched it back out my hands and takes a big gulp .
I sit there in shock , wondering who the fuck she was talking to . I open my mouth but no words come out so I just hit the blunt...