All Or Nothing

Nervous System Pt 1

•RONNIES POV•

Cyrus finally walks in after about 5 minutes , her eyes were low and red I know she was high but she looked pretty tired as well. "You didn't eat yet? I thought that what you was in here doing" she said looking over at me as she walked in the kitchen and opened up the cabinet , she grabs two plastic grey plates "I was waiting on you.." I said in a low tone. I watch as she washes her hands and then drys them with a paper towel.

"How many slices you want?" She asks looking over at me. She hasn't even sat her book bag down yet "Just two" I said grabbing her remote. "You was tryna put it on now?" She says and I knew she was referring to the movie "Yea , why should I wait?" I asked watching as she walks up to me with one of each slice "Yeah I wanna eat and take a shower" Cyrus said. I watch as she finally takes the bag off from around her shoulders and swiftly sets it on the floor. I could still smell the scent from candle burning earlier.

I take a big bite of the pepperoni pizza and instantly get hit with the different flavors. First it was cheese then I slowly began tasting the mozzarella sauce , I closed my eyes and chewed slow "Mmm" I mumbled "Im dead folks , look at ya face it's good ain't it!" Cyrus says laughing , I quickly open my eyes and lock them on hers "This shit different" I said laughing with her.

She walks around the island and sits on one of the stools , she turns the stool slowly so that she's facing me. I take another bite of my pizza "So are you the type that goes to pride and shit?" She says randomly and I snort "What you mean by that?" I asked "Like do you go to pride , gay pride" she says and I laughed "Yeah , you?" I asked holding my hand over my mouth as I talk , she shakes her head No "How come? It be fun" I said and she shrugs her shoulders "Never really had time for it I guess" she says "You should go" I said and she chuckled.

"How come you don't talk to your grandma?" I asked  as I open up my soda and take a sip. She finish chewing her food before answering "Because when I came out to her she wouldn't talk to me , Come near me.. she kicked me out her house , now she sitting here calling my phone wanting me to put my little sister in line but that's not my job." She said and I felt so bad for her .. seems like she's been neglected a lot "I get it.." I said , but the truth is I never really had to come out , me and Andy just started dating around and my foster parents didn't give a damn.

"She gonna say , can you come get ciani - can she live with you , bitch No I don't need her little ass around all my shit right now" Cyrus said getting up and walking over to the paper towels "Yeah she , should know that too" I said agreeing with her , her little sister doesn't need to be around with all this beef going on with between Ghost and Cyrus , Cyrus and John and lord knows who else. Hopefully I can get John and Cyrus to have a sit down and end the drama .. I really like Cyrus and Johns my family , even though he's been a little weird lately I still love him , he doesn't need to be around ghost because she's literally a Opp ass bitch.

"Exactly , she's a fucking goofy" Cyrus said after swallowing her food. I take a bite of the crust and didn't expect it to be so soft and flaky "Mmm , damn this shit is good as hell" I said covering my mouth. I looked over seeing Cyrus was almost done her food , damn that girl eat quick I thought. "I'm gonna go shower.. you want something to put on?" She said and I shook my head yes,  I like wearing her clothes. I watch as she wanders around the island and goes to her room.

I look down at my phone and remembered I had to text Jordan back but truth be told I don't want to. I hear commotion coming from Cyrus's room , sounds like shes looking through her closet that's when I heard her safe open , she's putting her money away I thought. A few seconds go by before I heard the safe shut and I continue eating.

After about 5-6 minutes I heard Cyrus walking thru the hall , I quickly get done rinsing my plate and set it on the rack. "Here , you can put these on in my room I'm taking a quick shower" she says walking towards me with hands out. I noticed she had took her shirt off and was in a white Nike bra with a towel around her shoulders , I swiftly look down at her stomach noticing the tattoos on her side first then I realized she had like 6 abs.. I look up at her arms which also looked more defined. She sure does look good...

"You work out?" I asked looking back at her as I gently took the clothes from her , Mm there goes that smell again , she doesn't smell like she needed a shower at all if you asked me but she probably felt gross from running around all day "No" she said chuckling . I knew the answer already but still wanted to ask "Mmhm , Could've fooled me.." I said giving her a quick glance before walking past her. The way she kissed me in that car a while ago got me wanting to pounce on her but I must control myself I don't wanna drive her away by being too clingy.

I walk into her room and she follows behind me "We can watch the movie in here." She says and I smiled at myself "Okay" I said tossing the clothes she gave me on the bed . I look over seeing she had her clothes picked out already "I'll get changed in the living room" she said grabbing the clothes. Before I knew it I heard the door shut. I began taking my shirt off and looked over at the mirror , I noticed I had a small food belly from eating the pizza , I rub my stomach as if I was pregnant and chuckle to myself.

After I got done changing into her clothes I fold mine over the end of the bed frame. I look around for the remote and notice it over on night stand. Realizing she had a gun laying right on top next to a box that had a designer name on it . Must be her chain or something I thought. I low key want to snoop around in her things but don't wanna get caught. I grab the remote and climb in the bed and turn the Tv on.

This is gonna be like the 3rd or 4th time we've slept together and I just wish she'd let me lay on her.. maybe I should try it tonight I thought. I took a deep breath , I feel a little nervous thinking about it. I scroll through her apps and of course she had Tubi , I click on it and wait for it to load. I search the movie up and wait for Cyrus . I begin thinking about how she rubbed up and down my neck so gently but yet with just enough pressure. I slowly touch my neck with my finger tips , wishing I could feel that feeling again.

I felt my cheeks flush , I blush just thinking about her.. I don't remember feeling this way towards Kayla and I truly loved that girl. Ugh I just hope this doesn't end bad .. or end at at , Cyrus is so important to me and I don't wanna lose our bond I thought. I look around her room noticing how plain it was , maybe it's because of when we had that fight a while back.. I mean she was in this bitch shooting and breaking stuff , truth be told if I were in her shoes and I thought that she was a snake , or any harm to my business operation I'd done the same.

I'm just glad we moved past that because who would've thought I'd be laid up with this girl and be kissing her. I touch my lips thinking about how moist her lips were , she's such a great kisser , her breath always smells good , her lips are soft as fuck never chapped , she doesn't over do it with the tongue kisses I mean she just knows how's to kiss is all. I heard the water shut off , she must be done I thought. After a few minutes the bathroom door opens , and gentle footsteps started to slowly fading away. Fuck I wish I could see her but I like how she's not rushing things between us because sometimes that's not always good plus it makes me even more nervous- in a good way because I never know her next move..