All Or Nothing

Nervous System Pt 2

                              •CYRUS POV•

I finish getting dressed and go back into the bathroom so I could oil up. I don't know what came over me in the car but the more I kiss her the more it feels less awkward between us. It's as if I'm kissing a girly girl almost , but the only thing really girly about Ronnie is the way she acts sometimes. I wonder if she thinks I'm girly in anyway.. I don't think I am but maybe she does.. nahh. I looked in the mirror and rub shea butter on my face , I wonder if Ronnie will try anything I thought.

I quickly brush my teeth and thought about how I came on to her this time.. I know I've done it before but it was different in the car , like I said I don't know what came over me.. but I'm glad I did it. After I get done I grab my Durag and wrap it around my head. Sometimes when I look in the mirror it's as if I'm looking at nothing , sometimes I wonder if there's something wrong with me and there's other times I see the people I've killed. I hated that I liked killing.. I know it doesn't make me normal like other people and I accepted that a couple years ago.

I shook my head trying to forget the thought, I better hurry up before Ronnie falls asleep I thought as I opened the door and turned the light off. I slowly walked up to the closed door that leads to my room , I take a deep breath and and let it out before walking in. "You all done?" She asked slowly sliding off the bed "Mhm" I mumble as I walked over to my dresser to use that oil Ronnie said she liked. "Okay , my toothbrush still in there?" She asked and I shook my head no "In the cabinet it's a pack of em" I said using my forearm to rub the oil on my neck.

I was a bit nervous but didn't let it show , I couldn't or she'd have a million questions. I smirked to myself "I'll be right back" she says and I didn't say anything. I keep thinking about the kiss , I know I shouldn't but truth be told , I want it to happen again and soon.. maybe not tonight but another time. I look back at the bed , I noticed the covers were perfectly in placed except on the side I usually lay. I roll my eyes, fuck it she can sleep on that side.

After a couple minutes Ronnie comes walking back in the room "You want me to shut the door?" She asked , I nodded Yes and watch as she shut it. I have a big bed but me and Ronnie are both pretty tall so she's not that far from me. The moment she climbs in bed I felt her body heat. "Okay so this movie is called Her boyfriends killer" she said grabbing the remote and pressing play. "What's it about?" I asked looking over at her I could smell the mint from her breath as she talked "So apparently this girl falls in love with her boyfriends killer , and it's supposed to have a crazy plot twist as well" she says leaning over towards the lamp on the dresser , she flicks it off so it's dark.

I glance over at her using just my eyes only to realize she looked really pretty , her lips looked so smooth. I quickly look alway when I thought she noticed. I look back at the Tv and begin reading the subtitles. Hopefully this movie isn't corny otherwise I'm going to sleep I thought to myself as I positioned myself so I'm comfy. I could feel Ronnie looking at me , I wonder what she's thinking I thought. "Stop staring at me" I said without looking away from the Tv "Sorry" she said chuckling I pull the covers up a little.

We're about 30 minutes into the movie and we laughed quite a few times.. Ronnie picked a good movie, I noticed I felt myself wanting to laugh when the guy killed her boyfriend.. I mean he deserved it , he ran over his daughter. "Wait till she finds out who he is! She's gonna feel so stupid.." Ronnie said , I laughed as I looked over at her I noticed her lips were slightly parted. She kept watching the movie even though she knows I'm staring at her.. I wanted to look away from her but I couldn't.

"Can I lay on you?" She asked turning her head to look at me. I froze , and felt my heart speed up , she wants to lay on me?! I wanted to say yes but nothing came out. "I'm going to lay on you" she told me , my stomach flutters as she scoots closer to me, I bite my bottom lip. "Lay back a little" She tells me again.. I slowly slouch back sinking into the pillow even more. Ronnie finally gets so close I could smell the vanilla coming off of her , I think it's her lotion or maybe shampoo, I don't know but it smells good though, I close my eyes so my smell could enhance.

I felt her rest her head on my chest and I just know she could hear my heart racing. I hold my right hand up not knowing where to place it I just put it behind my head. She was so warm, I thought as she slowly slides her hand over my stomach, I felt her fingers spread and thought about how she actually makes me nervous.. I looked back at the Tv trying my best to pay attention. Her touch makes me feel so good I thought as she holds onto my side. I watch as she snuggles her head into me even more.

After a few moments I finally got myself to calm down, her touch was so comforting.. I don't know how to explain other then I felt safe. "Your heart slowed down" she softly but I didn't say anything I kept watching the movie. She's so nosy I thought to myself as I heard her chuckling at a scene in the movie I wanted to laugh too but my mind was focused on her.

She her slowly lifts her leg up onto mine, then slowly moves her hand under my shirt and caresses my rib cage. I felt my body get chills but I did my best to maintain it.. I close my eyes and took in each second. Ronnie knew what she was doing and I'm allowing it to happen. I could feel her breathing a little hard, I wonder what's going through her mind. She's being so gentle, I noticed she's rubbing over the same area.. I wonder how she's able to be so calm about this, I mean she did mess with Willow maybe they went as far as fucking, I'm not on that though so I hope it's not what she expects.

She slowly looks up at me, her eyes sparked with lust and I knew she wanted to kiss me. I stared back into her eyes so she knew it's okay with me, then I looked down at her lips they were perfect.. she slowly moves her head closer to me and I knew what that meant! I began to meet her halfway till we were just inches away from each other, she slowly leans in and all I could smell was the vanilla coming off her body. I watch as she closes her eyes and softly place her lips on top of mine. I kept my eyes open for a few seconds, noticing how long and full her eye lashes were made my heart melt. I closed my eyes and we began to pick up the pace... it's as if the world stops each and every time.

I felt her lean in even more and my heart sped up, she was such a great kisser I'd never expect her to make me feel like this I thought as she parted her warm lips I could taste a hint of mint from the toothpaste she used, that's when I felt her hand gently squeeze the side of my stomach that instantly sent chills down my spine. That's a new feeling I thought as her lips brushed against mines I felts my body getting warmer and we kiss a little more deeply.

I take my hand from around my head and gently pace my fingers in her hair giving it a soft squeeze, her hair was so thick and soft, that must've turned her on or something because I felt her brush her body up against my thigh. She kisses me so passionately as if this were the last time. I fell more into my pillow feeling so weak but I didn't care. I give head another squeeze and she lets out a quite moan, okay so that's clearly a weakness of hers.

My heart was beating so loudly I knew she could hear but I didn't care. She moves her hand up towards my neck and breaks away from the kiss and I open my eyes noticing her looking at me, smirking before biting her lip "I just wanted to tease you" she says still going back to caressing my stomach. I felt my cheeks flush and knew I was smiling a little too hard, I've been wanting to as well. She smiles at me and looks back down at my lips and gives me a small peck before laying back down on my chest.

This girl is something else.. tease me is exactly what she did! I can't believe I found a weak spot and that's it's in her hair, I wonder what the others are.. I'll probably fuck around and find out later down the line I thought smirking to myself, still who would've thought Ronnie likes her hair being played with though.. hmm that means she probably enjoys getting her hair pulled and all types of shit I thought as I tried to focus back on the movie. She snuggles her head into my chest even more and I felt so comfy , I'm glad she came over.

            •Sorry for the delay Bare with me ❤️•