All Or Nothing

Where Are You Ron

•RONNIES POINT OF VIEW•

I get back to my hotel room and settle in. Cyrus irritated me because I truly wanted to go do something since I haven't had fun in a while , and she threw that girls number away and I didn't care if the bitch was dating her cousin she clearly wanted me . "UGHHH" I say loudly . I decide I was gonna give Andy that call I've been wanting to do since I came here.

My heart starts to race as I type her number in. Then again maybe I should just call her off instagram so she doesn't try to track me. I take a deep breath and open her 110 messages. "RONNIE I MISS YOU SO MUCH" was the latest message she sent me and that was yesterday at 7pm. I click her story and watch it , I see some bitch touching all up on Andy , then I click over to next one seeing her kiss some bitch with a red wig.

*Ring ring , ring ring, ring ring, ring ring* no answer I thought to myself , Now I wish I didn't call her. I open everyone else's messages . I make a post to my instagram story indicating that I'm not missing and that I'm in fact okay... well in reality im not doing so so good giving I almost got robbed lastnight! But I won't let them know that. I shut my phone off and go use the bathroom.

I come back into the room and look around for my weed. "Found ya!" I say sounding a little excited. I go in my bag and get the rest of my wraps , I break the weed up and put it in the blunt . I quickly roll it up and look for my lighter which was in my pants from yesterday. I grab my phone and go sit on the balcony chair.

•NOTIFICATION CENTER•

•Andy2Gay 4missed calls 6 minutes ago on instagram

• Andy2Gay 5missed calls 3 minutes ago..

•John902 3missed calls 6 minutes ago..

•Nylababy7 Sent you a message on instagram..

•Andy texted you 7 times on instagram 5 minutes ago..

•ohwhyKayla texted you on instagram 3 minutes ago..

It's so many more message but those where the top ones I cared about. I smoke my blunt down some more before giving Andy a call back. I take a deep breath in , *ahhh* I breathe out. *ring ring rin-*

"HELLO?" Andy says , I don't say anything. "Helloooo Ronnie can you hear me!?" She says again. "Andy?" I say "hello Ronnie is that you?!!" She say shouting through the phone. "Yes it's me" I say "Ronnie where the heck are you!??" She says sounding extremely concerned. "Why do you sound like that??" She says sounding concerned again. "Where the fuck are you Ron Ron?" She says once again.

"I left , I just wanted to call you so you can hear my voice and know that I'm doing okay" I say calmly. "Ronnie Monae Worthington WHERE THE FUCK ARE YOU ! AND WHY WONT YOU PUT YOUR FACE IN THE CAMERA HOW IM SUPPOSED TO KNOW THIS REALLY YOU?!!" She says sounding like she was about to cry. "A , I had to leave Atl" I say sounding so bad for her. "Ronnie how can you just up and leave us like that , LOLA I mean you left everything and didn't even look back" she says as she starts to cry.

"A please don't cry , I just wanted you to know I was okay" I say taking another puff of my blunt. "Can you at least tell me where you are so I can come see you?!" She says in between sniffing . "Please Ronnie , I need you" she says "I gotta go Andy I love you and I miss you so much" I say removing my ear from the phone and I hang up.

"FUCKK" I say to myself I sit back and look up at the sky. It felt so good to hear her voice but now I regret calling her because all of those emotions from ATL came center to my attention and I start to feel overwhelmed. I feel like I shouldn't have left Andy , she's honestly been nothing but supportive towards me my whole life.  I threw her just wanting to be my friend because I was sick in her face , and I shouldn't have because now here I am in Chicago can't even make a damn real friend.

I go on my phone and log out my Instagram.  I knew I shouldn't have didn't that but I know I would've want to know if Andy were okay if she was in my boat. I smoke my blunt some more and throw it over the balcony letting it fall down the 12 stories before finally hitting the ground. I grab my phone and walk back into my hotel room. I decided to go take a quick shower and get ready for bed since there was nothing else left to do.

After I get out the shower I go over and sit down in front of the A/C . I stare at the ceiling and think about what Andy might be doing. Knowing her she's probably gonna try and track me. I laugh to myself as I think about her and I suddenly hear my phone ring I see it's Cyrus I wait a few more seconding before answering her face time call.

"Aye you tryna slide to that party Keisha having for my cousin tonight ?" She says , i check the time on the alarm clock next to the bed and see that it's only 9:27 . "You hear me?" she says holding her camera up. "Yea but I'm not driving" I say simply "okay nigga you don't got too I will , I'll be there at 10" she says before she hangs up.

Honestly I'm not even sure if I wanna go with her or not. I mean I do wanna get out the house and do something fun for a change. Maybe I'll have fun I thought to myself. I head over to the dresser and find a outfit to put on real quick . I decided I was gonna go with my all grey Nike tech sweatsuit , white fitted teeshirt and my new grey 11s , these are my first pair and I'm excited to try them on. I throw my chain and go in the bathroom and get some deodorant , cologne and lotion. As I wait for Cyrus I decided to pre roll 3 blunts and head out to my car making sure I got a few bucks , my phone and key card for the hotel.