𝐖𝐞 𝐅𝐞𝐥𝐥 𝐢𝐧 𝐋𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐢𝐧 𝐎𝐜𝐭𝐨𝐛𝐞𝐫 | ☆彡𝐧𝐢𝐤𝐢 𝐧𝐢𝐡𝐚𝐜𝐡𝐮☆彡

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Dahlias pov:

i kept staring at my arm as i drove.
what do i do?

i felt my eyes water.
fuck this wasn't supposed to happen.
why did i do it?

i felt my breathing get shaky and it got very hard to breathe.

i pulled over and started to cry.
not a normal cry.
an ugly sob broke through the music that was playing.

i see a car pull over next to me but i don't have the energy to look more.

"lia. it's me, open the door." the british voice said through the door.

i unlocked it and tubbo stood there.
"i-i'm sorry."

"hey there's no need to be sorry." he said softly.

he reached his arms out for a hug and i accepted.
i tried to stop crying and he just hugged until i stopped.
then stayed in the hug for a few moments till i let go.

"what happened?"

"i did something i regret. i don't really want to talk about it."
i don't want to burden him.
he's just asking to be nice.

"that's ok."

i rubbed my eyes and put my head in my hands. "ugh i have to drive. i'm sorry for the inconvenience." i walked away and turned to my car.

"wait!" tubbo spoke and turned to sapnap, saying something incoherent.
"i'll drive you. no offense but it looks like you need to take a nap."

"no it's ok. i'm ok i-"

"it's not a problem. i promise."

i sighed softly and handed him my keys.
he smiled and got into my front seat and i jumped in the passenger seat, then put my bag of gummies and a vape on the floor.

"is it ok if i play music?" tubbo asked.

"for sure."

he played cigarettes after sex.

"do you want to tell me what happened or want more time? i just don't want you to feel like you're burdening me with your problems."

"i relapsed." i whispered.

"that's ok. things happen."

"tubbo," i turned to him. "i was 4 years clean. ALMOST HALF A DECADE I FUCKING FUCKED UP SO HARD." i yelled and hit my head.

"no no! stop." i grabbed my hand to stop from hitting my head.
"you didn't fuck up. your fine. people make mistakes. that's ok."

"i feel like a failure." i whispered.

"it's so dumb but," he sighed.
"take a nap. you're obviously exhausted so take a nap and then we'll talk about this later. so you can think better, ok?"

"i'm scared."

"to... sleep?"

i nodded slowly. "sometimes i can sleep it away. other times it follows me into my dream."

"just remember it's not real."

i nodded and laid my head down on the hard window.

i saw him text someone with one hand while looking at the road then he pulled over.

we walked out and walked away.

i accepted that he got tired and so i started to unbuckle to get out to start driving.
yeah, i'm so annoying. i shouldn't have said anything.
now he left.