Playing the Game called Love

CHAPTER 18

Yes or no?

In or out . Am I in or out?

Haha

Nandito ako sa tapat ng malaking building na sinabing address dun sa binigay ni Angel na calling card. Nagbabalak na akong sumali dun sa workshop na ino organize ng RWC(Rhythm workshop center) .

"Hindi naman ako kagalingan. Wag nanga lang" I step back.

Teka.

"Kaya nga mag-aaral diba? " tapos bumalik uli ako.
"Kaya lang nakakahiya. Paano kung magagaling yung mga kasali dito? "

Balik balik.

"Pero makakatulong din kasi sakin to para may magawa ako at hindi na magmukmok"

Balik balik.

"Ay palaka"

On second thought, hindi pala palaka. Mukhang palaka.

Bigla kasing may sumipa sa harap ko. Hindi ako tinamaan pero near enough to catch my attention.

Si joshua.

"Anong ginagawa mo dito? "
"May practice kami"
"Kasali ka din sa RWC? "
"Oo. Mag aaudition ka ba? "
"Hindi ah. Napadaan lang ako"
"Sinusundan mo ako? "
"Bakit naman kita susundan? "
"Kasi gusto mo ako"
"Bakit naman kita magugustuhan?"
"Kasi pogi ako eh"
"Ah talaga? Kelan pa? Hindi ako na inform"
"Oh eh anong ipinunta mo dito kung talaga"
"Wala ka na dun"
"Edi sinusundan mo nga ako"
"Maga-audition ako dapat okay"
"sa loob ang audition. " tapos hinila niya ako papasok.

"Huy ano ba. Ayoko na"
"Nagsayang ka ng pamasahe at oras papunta dito tapos hindi ka tutuloy"
"Oh eh ano sayo. Akin namang oras at pera yun"

Hindi niya ako pinansin. Nakaka asar. Tapos kinausap niya pa yung staff dun na unahin ako. Hanebeyen. Natetense tuloy ako.

"Miss ready ka na? "

Hindi pa po.

"Opo" bakit opo ang sinabi ko?

Nung wala akong maisip na kanta, umisip akong ng inspirasyon. Alam niyo ba kung sino ang naisip ko?

Clue..

Antanga tanga ako kasi siya ang unang pumasok sa isip ko.

Sino pa nga ba?

Edi yung ex ko.

Happy Ending by Avril Lavigne ang napili kong kantahin.

Sa bawat sinasabi sa kanta, napapa araay ako.

"lets talk this over
its not like were dead
was it something i did
was it something you said

Matanong ko lang. Ano nga ba ang nagawa kong mali?

don't leave me hanging
in this city so dead
held up so high
im such unbreakable tread

Anyareh nga ba sakin? Ang alam ko kasi ako si Trisha. Matapang, matalino, at hindi nagpapaloko. Eh bakit ako umabot sa ganito? Bakita antanga tanga ko ata? Ako pa ba to? Hindi ko na kilala ang sarili ko.

you were all the thing I thought I knew
and i thought we could be

Nagpaloko ako. Naniwala ako. Sinama kita sa lahat ng pangarap ko. Pero iniwan mo lang ako.

you were everything
everything that I wanted
we were meant to be
supposed to be but we lost it
all of the memory so close to me just fade away
all this time you were pretending
so much for my Happy ending

aha aha
so much for my happy ending

Pero sinabi ko sa sarili kong tama na. Nakailang sabi na ba akong mag mo move on nako? Sinabi ko din bang kakalimutan ko na siya? Bakit ganito kahirap?

you've got your damned friends
and know what they say
they tell you I'm difficult
but so are they
But they dont know me
do they even know you?
all the things you hide from me
ALL THE SHIT THAT YOU DO.

YEAH. I have to emphasize that I guess. ALL THE SHIT THAT YOU DO

you were all the thing I thought I knew
and i thought we could be

you were everything
everything that I wanted
we were meant to be
supposed to be but we lost it
all of the memory so close to me just fade away
all this time you were pretending
so much for my Happy ending

aha aha
so much for my happy ending

it's nice to know that you were there
thanks for acting like you care
and making me feel like I was the only one
its nice to know we had it all
thanks for watching as I fall and letting me know we were done

CONGRATS. congrats Michael. Napaniwala mo akong ako lang.

Hanebe. Ansakit. Ansakit sakit.

he was everything
everything that I wanted
we were meant to be supposed to be but we lost it
all of the memory so close to me just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending

you were everything
everything that I wanted
we were meant to be
supposed to be but we lost it
all of the memory so close to me just fade away
all this time you were pretending
so much for my Happy ending

aha aha
so much for my happy ending

you were everything
everything that I wanted
we were meant to be
supposed to be but we lost it
all of the memory so close to me just fade away
all this time you were pretending
so much for my happy ending

aha aha
so much for my happy ending

aha aha so much for my happy ending

Hayyy, natapos din ang kanta. Kantang wagas maka flashback.

But I have to admit na nakatulong yung kantang yun para hindi ako gaanong ma conscious sa stage. Imbis na nasa judges yung focus ko, nasa ex ko.

Natigilan lang ako ng makarinig ng palakpak.

"Sa tingin ko hindi na natin kailangan pagtalunan yun. "
"I agree"
"you're in"

Yan yung sinabi saakin nung mga judge-kuno.