A MAN TO HATE

chapter twenty nine

Hello besties! I'm sorry cause I missed our weekly post, I had a big internet issue, but here the two last chapters of the week ( chapter thirty is up too ) I don't know when I'll go back to the normal, but I'll try my best to come back soon, enjoy these chapters ❤️❤️

Bellatia

When I wake up, an immediate smile draws on my face when I see Jungkook snuggling against my Teddy Bear from behind, his foot around the big stuffed animal

His hair is in the biggest mess ever, covering his whole face

I have no idea when he joined me in the bed yesterday night, but I can't explain why I'm glad he did

After that conversation last night, I thought that he would act distant with me until I give him an answer, but he didn't

I look at him and I'm struggling not to caress his hair

Looking at him like that, he doesn't look like someone to be scared of, someone to mistrust

I'm still thinking about what he said yesterday night

But how to put down my guards when all my life I had to struggle because of his greed , him and his father

It's really like betraying my own blood, my identity

The marriage meant nothing to me, but getting closer to him and act totally normal with him is another story

Why does he even want us to be close? We are good like that, no ?

" Cause it hurts me when you think I want to use you or your body, it hurts me when you use our past to create a barrier between us, it hurts me when you tell me you hate me...I care about what you think about me cause I'm trying my best to show you the kindest side of the villain you think I am, but you keep pushing me away "

I wouldn't guess all that cause wasn't he supposed to despise me as well ?

From the very beginning, we treated each other with the same hatred and hostility

Then what can't it be like that until the end?

He slowly starts to wake up, I close my eyes quickly, acting like I'm still asleep

A few seconds later I could feel his gaze burning my skin

You know when you can't see but can feel that someone is staring at you? Yeah, like that

He finally stands up and leaves the bed silently

I open my eyes slowly, staring at the empty place behind the Teddy bear while he is already in the bathroom

Maybe I should stop questioning and just give it a try

We both are so stubborn with a strong temper, we will still argue

But I think what he meant is to put the past behind us, the family war, that endless hostility, the resentments, so we can focus on the present, on us, the marriage we agreed to do, not to never argue

Is that even possible to truly put down my guards in front of a Jeon?

You are not even trying, he would have said to me right now

Okay...

I'll try now

So we can see if we can really compromise to succeed that marriage

I don't know if I won't fail to drag our past again between us before the deadline he gave me

But honestly...the divorce isn't a bad thing for me