A MAN TO HATE

chapter twenty seven

Jungkook

I hold her hand while we're walking in the crowded street of Shibuya city

I feel a bit glad that I can use the crowded streets as an excuse to hold her hand and keep her closer to me

I don't know what is wrong with me , I keep telling myself that I should take my distance with her cause she despises me, but here I am, finding excuses to keep her closer to me

We stop in front of the hashikõ memorial statue and I tell her the story behind it

I smile a little bit at her little pout of sadness after hearing the story of this loyal dog that marked japanese people history

" I wish men were that loyal " she mumbles

" How can you say we aren't, do you know all of us? "  I ask

She shrugs

" It's all about the breed, a doberman is like all other dobermans "

I chuckle, she looks so adorable trying to make that silly comparison

" I'm very loyal " I say, still smiling

She glances at me

" Well, then I guess you might be a Chihuahua among the dobermans "

This time I laugh, this woman is effortlessly funny and cute

We finally arrive at my favorite ramen place in Japan, Ichiran Shibuya

We sit down and I look at her frowning in front of the menu being in Japanese

" Let me take care of this " I say as I grab the card from her hands and just ask for my favorite order

A few minutes later, I couldn't help myself but smile , looking at her struggling with the chopsticks

" Should I also feed you ? " I ask her, mockingly

" Mind your business Jeon Jungkook " she retaliates, pouting

I smile tenderly

She ended up using the big spoon for the broth instead of the chopsticks

I can't even focus on my bowl, just busy admiring her being so bubbly

She doesn't hide how much she appreciates the food and I like that

She is killing me, she's showing the sides of herself that I can't resist just to push me away again and tell me how much she hates me

" What? " She says with her mouth full of the egg she doesn't masticate yet

It's just now that I realize that I was so lost in my contemplation, she's even blushing

It's her second time blushing in front of me and I slowly start to add it into my list of things I love about her

" Why don't you eat ? This is so good ! " She adds, still suffocated by the egg

I smile sadly

I wish she was mine

I know, she kinda is ...but you get what I mean

I wish there was an other life where we met in normal circumstances and we have reciprocate appreciation for each other

Who knows? Maybe she would've liked me...loved me maybe

" Nothing " I reply vaguely

She looks at me for a few minutes and I ignore her gaze, trying not to act clumsy like a teenager being watched by his strict parents