A MAN TO HATE

chapter forty seven

Jungkook

This is my first time being locked inside my room for a whole damn day

But I don't feel any motivation to do anything, to work, to meet people, to even see the sun

I didn't sleep yesterday night, and I can tell that I'm on the way for many other nights like that one

It's almost evening, and I only got out my bed to take a shower

Bellatia didn't give me any sign of life

I wish I could call her to ask about her health and how she is doing

Cause she was so close to death yesterday night, and I know she might still have some after-effects

But I know already that she won't pick up my calls

So I'm just here...

Dying in her absence

I spent the night thinking about what I'm going to do if she asks for a divorce

I don't know...

I will definitely let her go if this is what she wants

I want her to be happy and if her happiness is not by my side, I can't keep her with me

Even if it's gonna destroy me, ruin me, shatter me...

I'll sacrifice my own desire for her happiness

Cause if I'm being honest....

I'm the reason of her pain...from the beginning

I love her so much, but I didn't love her the right way

I couldn't be honest with her

I couldn't make her feel safe with me

I couldn't protect her and make sure the little trust she had in me grow

No matter what will be her decision...
I deserve it

The discreet knock at my door caught my attention

" Yes? "

" Mr Jeon, there's something for you " says the voice of my housemaid

" Who? "

" Mrs Jeon "

I feel like my heart just opens, I leave my room immediately

But my hope dies when I see my mother waiting for me in the living room

I forgot that she was also " Mrs Jeon "

She looks at me and instead of smiling as usual, she frowns

" Jungkook...why are you looking so... Unfit? " She says looking at me only wearing my bottom of pyjama

I must look like someone who got run over by a train and I know my Mom hates when I look messy

I sigh heavily

" Eomma ! " I say simply

" Well...where is my daughter? I came for her , I heard that you found her and everything went well " she says

I glance at the guards in the corner of the living room, by the bunch of shopping bags they are carrying, I know for sure she didn't come for me

" Bella...is not here..." I say in a low voice

" What? Why? Don't tell me that you let her go to work after everything that happened ? "

I run a nervous hand through my hair