A MAN TO HATE

chapter forty eight

Bellatia

I see Samantha coming towards my office through the opaque windows

It's been almost two weeks now since that whole kidnapping happened and I left Jungkook's mansion

I know everyone knows about the fact that we're living separately, but they don't dare to talk about it loud when I'm around

They don't know why we are distant... it's already a good thing cause I just hate people minding my business instead of theirs

I know they've been dying to know what's going on and what's the tea

Our wedding was such a big thing and the fact that we are already acting like a divorced couple looks suspicious to them

Only Samantha knows that we probably had a fight cause of how many calls of him I've been declining everytime he calls through her office phone

But she is too professional to ask questions even though we got a little closer cause of the wedding

Jungkook called me through my secretary and pretended it's for business

He didn't dare to call me directly, he knows better not to approach me right now

But...I kept declining every call of him

All of them...

I'm too angry to even breathe the same air as him now

I don't wanna hear him, I don't wanna see him

I miss him...I do,

But physically, mentally... I'm just not ready to talk to him

It took me days before I could finally stop crying and moping because of him

Now, I'm in the anger phase

Everytime I think about him, instead of crying, I just curse and wish I could strangle him

It's hard to hate him cause I'm already too in love with him

But that didn't stop me from fuming and wanting to kill him

I hate when people make me feel stupid, and that's exactly what he did

He was never sincere with me

He used me, my body, my brain

And everytime I think of him...I curse myself for being so naive and blind

Now ... I'm just trying to gain time so I can get my full inheritance, and then ask for a divorce

But there is that one question I wanna ask him before I sign those divorce papers

" Did you really marry me only to get revenge for her? "

I'm craving to ask him this question

My mind already believes it, but my heart just keeps hoping that he wasn't that evil

Why am I so naive?

What would change if he said No? Wouldn't that be another lie ?

I'm trying so hard to believe that the man I fell in love with isn't that monstrous

But at the same time... there are too much evidence

My heart and my brain refuse to team up...they both see Jungkook differently

My heart is still so attached to that man I was with weeks ago in that magnificent castle, where we were together in our own world, our little bubble of happiness