A MAN TO HATE

chapter thirty nine

Jungkook

We all stand in the yard, looking at the fireworks in the sky

I feel Bella next to me, I glance at her and I can see how sparkly are her eyes, like an innocent kid being fulfilled by the view

She is just next to me, but I pull her closer...I just can't support any distance between us

She smiles at me and I feel my heart bouncing inside my chest

I'm so head over heels for that woman that even my heart can't keep it quiet anymore

She told me to stop talking to her like I was a man in love earlier, but what am I?

I am a man in love

There's nothing I can do about it

I tried to mask it and make fun of her question just cause I'm scared of how she would react if I told her the truth

If I told her that my heart is beating like crazy just cause she's around

That I'm not sick...but just ridiculously in love with her

We just got married, and I don't think it's the right moment to confess something like that

I don't even think I will ever dare to confess that

I know Bellatia...

She would never trust me, and she would just put a barrier between us again

And I don't want that

I'd rather die than let her put that cold distance back between us

I couldn't even stand it when I wasn't aware of my feelings, now that I am...I don't want my wife to look at me with blank eyes and pocker face again

So, I'll keep my feelings to myself for now

Or even forever...

" Today was amazing " she murmurs more for herself than for me

" Yeah, I know " I reply, with my eyes on her instead of the fireworks

Am I too obvious?

I mean...I just can't take my eyes off of her, and all my friends already made fun of me today, saying how hard I fell

Even my mother had noticed...

But, how to look away when Bellatia is just here? Next to me?

the most beautiful woman I have ever laid my eyes on

Lord !

I'm fucked up...

She puts her head on my shoulder

" But I'm tired already, can we go to our room? " She asks softly

" Tired already? " I ask back, shocked

She laughs softly

And only God knows how much I fancy Bellatia's laughter

Everything about her is so perfect

" I mean... I'm tired of the party " she rectifies

I smile at her and I lean forward to kiss her forehead

I just can't see her forehead without the desire to put a kiss on it

" Then, I think we should leave " I whisper

She smiles at me and she slides her hand under my arm as we walk together to the castle

There's still people chatting, dancing, eating and all that...