A MAN TO HATE

chapter fifty

Bellatia

I sit motionless behind my computer, staring at the email of invitation for the Merlan ball

This moment reminds me of the first time I was going to meet Jungkook at the Palmer's masked ball

I went to that ball cause I was craving to put a face on his name

And here again, I'm going to that one with the hope that I could clarify this situation

It's still in two weeks, so I have time to prepare myself mentally

I don't know if I will be able to confront him

I'm honestly scared to confront him and to find out that he still has feelings for that woman who obviously marked his life

I'm scared to see the sadness in his eyes when I'll mention her

Maybe I'm exaggerating but...

Apparently he was so in love with her, and the way he was ready to risk it all for her and become a whole criminal just proves this point

So maybe he still loves the ghost of that woman

And this is what hurts me the most

Is it cause I love him ? And just the idea of him being in love with someone else makes me feel bitter ?

I don't know...

This feeling is still new to me

But for now, I just need to focus on the main problem, all those are just little details

First thing first is to find out if yes or no he really married me to follow his plan to make Warren pay for his almost-fiancée's death

And I also need to yell at him for all his lies and the way he manipulated me and hiding things from me

I don't know if I'll be able to yell at him at the ball

We will see

Imagine he doesn't come?

I receive a new email, I check it immediately since I was already in my mailbox

I read silently the few lines sent by my father's lawyer and my heart skips a beat

I just got my full inheritance...

My heart starts beating faster

So that's mean... I'm free?

Jungkook also already gave me back the shares he had... stolen from Warren

I have total power over the lead of the hotel chain and I'm unstoppable

But...

Why...?

Why am I not that happy about it?

Months ago, that was exactly what I was waiting for so I can be free from the Jeon's dominance

I dreamed of this moment since the day Jungkook proposed me that business marriage

But...

Now that it happens...

I don't know how to feel about it

I didn't expect it to happen this fast

I honestly wish I could have an excuse to stay in that marriage a bit longer

But now... there's literally nothing holding me back

I have no reason to stay with him now...

No other reason than my feelings for him