A MAN TO HATE

chapter forty six

Jungkook

I try not to panic, but seeing that Bellatia is still not waking up despite the cardiac massage and mouth to mouth I'm giving her is about to make me lose my mind

" Please Bella, please..." I keep saying everytime I press on her soaked stomach

I can't lose her, I refuse to lose her

She can't leave me that way

Everytime I fall in love with someone, I have to witness their death

Is it my curse ?

But I refuse to lose Bellatia...I refuse

" Bella, don't do this to me Love, please...come back to me " I say as the first tears of despair roll down my cheeks

" Please...please " I add with a ravaged voice

Did I come too late?

how long had she been in the water?

There's no way to find help, we're alone in that side of the forest

I'm too scared to waste any second by trying to find help from my team or by calling an ambulance

My hands are shaking

I stop the massage to blow into her mouth again

" Please Bella, survive...even if it's just to kill me after, please " I sob

I don't know what else to do, and the only things I know don't work

I rest my head on her chest, crying silently

Why ?

Why her?

Why didn't death take me instead?

She did nothing wrong...

It's so hard to breath, I feel like I'm also dying

She was here a few days ago, with me...

If I had known all this would have happened, I wouldn't have come back to LA

I take her in my arms, she's so cold

" My love..." I whisper just cause the lump in my throat doesn't allow me to speak any louder

I can't believe it's real

Please wake me up from this nightmare

I want my wife back, I want her back...

I keep crying like a damn baby, I wish my tears could take her back

" Bella..."

I don't know if it's my imagination, but I feel her body moving slightly in my arms

My eyes widen,a little bit of hope fills my insides

" Bella " I repeat firmly this time as I let go of the embrace to look at her

She suddenly starts coughing as water come out her nose and mouth

She is alive...

I will never be able to explain the way I feel right now when I see her coming back to life

She opens her eyes slowly and she looks at me

" Bella..." Is the only thing I find to say

" Where am I ? " She asks, obviously still not herself yet

I pull her in my arms with a sigh of relief

" Don't do this to me again love...never again "

I carry her in my arms and I try to find a way outside the forest