"I can't do this,"
Mas lumala pa ang condition ko after several weeks. Since hindi ako nagpapatreatment ay mas mabilis na kakalat ang sakit sa katawan ko.
Leandro have been suspicious of me ever since... kasi napapansin niyang may iba akong kausap sa phone which is ang doktor ko naman na palagi akong pinu-pursuade na magpatreat.
"Miss Guevarra, shouldn't we atleast try?"
Napakagat ako sa aking labi at napatingin sa screen ng laptop ko, it was a photo of Leandro and me.
Isinara ko iyon at bumuntong hininga. "That won't fully work anyway,"
"Don't say that Miss—"
"Thank you for your concern, but my decision is final." sabi ko't pinatay na ang tawag.
Nilingon ko si Leandro na nakasandal sa doorframe. Mukhang narinig niya ang lahat. Bahagyang nagulat siya nang mapansin ko ang presensya niya.
"Who was that?"
I shook my head. "My blockmate." Then again, I lied. "We just talked about a project,"
Napatango-tango siya. "Sorry,"
"It's fine." I smiled.
Napayuko nalang siya at isinara ang pintuan paglabas. Tears started streaming down my cheeks. Kaagad akong nagpunta sa banyo at isinara kaagad ang pintuan. I turned on the shower to cover my cries.
He was like a constant reminder of a happy ending I could never have because of this damn illness.
Pero siya rin ang constant reminder ko na dapat lumaban pa rin at magpakatatag... he's the one who keeps me going.
It's sad... this world is indeed cruel.
We can't even have our own happy ending in this life.
Lumabas ako, timing din na lumabas siya mula sa kwarto niya. He was all dressed up, parang may kikitain.
Napataas ang aking kilay at pinagkrus ang mga kamay ko. "Going somewhere at this hour?"
"Yeah, I just need to be somewhere." He was texting someone on his phone.
"And that somewhere is?"
Tinignan niya ako. I washed up my face kaya hindi halatang umiiyak ako. He just smiled, not showing his teeth. "Get some rest, don't wait up." sabi niya lang at bumaba na sa hagdan.
I pursed my lips. He didn't answer my question...
Our relationship has always been like this, on and off. Kapag ayos kami, kinabukasan ay babalik naman sa silent treatment at pagiging cold sa isa't-isa.
It's like we're slowly drifting away.
Kada gabi nalang din siyang gano'n, umaalis. May klase ako kinabukasan kaya hindi ko siya masusundan.
And these past few weeks, 'yung relasyon namin ay napuno na ng sikreto at kasinungalingan... and it's all my fault.
I just couldn't bring this topic up.
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Beneath the Stars (UNDER REVISION)
Roman d'amourfirst installment of castuarez series. "Our love was always written beneath the stars--the main witnesses of our love story from the very beginning." Gabriella Estrella, the typical "bad girl" and the black sheep of the family. She was all fun and g...
