Fragments of Us

1: Ella

The sea-breeze caresses my face as the waves relentlessly crash on the shore. A dark-cold starry night and a distant chatter from strangers enjoying the peacefulness of God's creation.

A paradise, for some but not even close to an escape for me.

I've lost track of time watching the sea hugs the shore.

I'm sitting at the sand, just feeling the little waves occasionally lapping on my feet.

Twelve years. Twelve long years, only to end up being ditched and forgotten in an utter oblivion.

"I'm sorry, I just want a child."

Her voice still echoing in my mind.

Amy, my childhood friend, my best friend, my first love, my first everything, left me because she suddenly realized she wants to have a family and a child of her own.

Pity of me to think a love like ours could withstand anything.

Now, here I am. Alone in a place I've never been in before. Where there's no one I recognize, including myself. I mean, how could I? I've been with her ever since like when God breathe me to life and now I have to live with the fact that she's marrying someone who's never going to be me. I don't know who I am without her.

All I know is I'm here somewhere too far from home because she's my home. And she's found hers in another.

At least I'm far away. Far away from everything that reminds me of her. From the places we used to go. From the things we used to love. From the people we used to know.

A part of me knew this will eventually happen. I still could not have done anything. It's out of my power to stop the inevitable.

"Stupid promises."

I muttered as I aggressively kick the sand, throwing away the necklace she gave me when we were fifteen.

I walked towards the sea, cursing, screaming, and even hitting the water.

"You said you're never going to leave me!"

I shouted into nothingness.

"You fucking lied."