When You Love Someone (COMPLETED)

Chapter 6

Chapter 6

"That's what she wanted. Get pregnant and trapped me into marrying her. I don't even like her that much." Hindi mawala sa isip ko ang mga sinabing iyon ng lalaking yun. It pissed me off and I know it made Noah feel a little awkward. Halata naman sa kanya eh. It's like a dejavu to the both of us but was happening to other people that we were watching. "I'm not gonna go back. I don't care if she's pregnant, I don't care about that child. I don't care if it's mine." That's exactly what Noah told me then.

Yeah, hindi nga natuloy ang kasal nila. Nasa resort pa kami. Sa beach side habang pinapanood namin ang paglubog ng araw. Nakaupo lang kami sa buhanginan, I hate being next to him pero wala naman akong choice. I'm not really comfortable hanging out with people I don't personally knew. Like I know Noah so well, I don't.

"Hoo, that feels awkward." Nakasandig ang mga mga siko niya sa buhanginan hawak ang isang lata ng beer. Napalingon naman ako sa kanya. "I hate that. Tumingin din siya sa akin bago sabihin yun. "And I'm sorry." Seryoso niyang sabi. Iniwas ko ang tingin sa kanya. Nakita ko naman sa gilid ng mga mata ko ang paglagok niya sa natitira pang laman ng lata ng beer niya saka pag-ayos na rin niya ng pagkakaupo. "..but i guess it's just how normally a young guy would react getting a girl pregnant because we don't like that. Who likes that unplanned?"

"Don't have s#x then."

"Is it even possible?" Paglingon ko sa kanya nakangisi pa siya. "Especially if the girl was the one giving motives?" I don't know why I feel insulted sa sinabi niyang yun. "I didn't even asked you to go to bed with me."

"Because its consensual. We both like that. We didn't even think that I could get pregnant."

"There is always ways for you not to get pregnant. Sabihin m, ginusto mo lang." Kumunot ang noo ko sa sinabi niya. "Maybe you also planned on trapping me to marry you."

"I never planned that!" Nagkatitigan lang kaming dalawa habang nanggagalaiti ako ng galit sa kanya. "That is why it's unplanned. I was just so in love with you. I wanted to be with you. Ginusto ko mangyari yun because I was so into you and I want to give you everything you want. Because I thought that's how you show someone you love him." I was so young to understand that it's not. Di ko mapigilan ang maluha habang sinasabi yun. Pakiramdam ko lang kasi ang baba ng tingin niya sa akin sa sinabi niyang yun. It's not my fault that I fell in love with him and I got pregnant just because I'm not careful enough. I don't know how to justify my own mistake pero hindi ko naman talaga sinadya ang lahat ng yun. I let things happened at hindi ko na naisip pa ag mga sunod na nangyari. Nawala na ako sa sarili ko while falling deeply in love with him.

"Hey..." hinawakan niya ako bigla sa kaliwang pisngi ko. Saka pinunasan gamit ng hinlalaki niya ang mga luhang pumapatak roon at sa kabila naman gamit ng isa pang mga kamay nito. "I'm just kidding." Nakatawa pang sabi niya, "I didn't mean to say that." And he got serious.

I noticed someone taking us picture from behind him kaya agad ko namang inalis ang mga kamay niya sa mukha ko. Inalis ko na ang mga mata ko sa kanya saka inayos na lang ang nakalaylay na parte ng buhok ko at inilagay sa likod ng mga tenga ko. Nagpatuloy naman siya sa pagsasalita.

"We never thought it's gonna happen actually. Yes, we maybe know how to avoid your pregnancy I also wasn't really careful then. And my reaction was my biggest mistake and regret." I wasnt looking at him but I'm paying attention to what he's saying. "I wished I never have reacted that way. And think about it first, but I was too selfish back then maybe because we're too young." I hated him whenhe did that to me, pero kahit papaano parang naiintindihan ko na rin kung bakit ganun ang naging reaksyon niya. Tama siya, we wre both very young, when I found out I was pregnant I also don't know what to do. Kasi alam kong magagalit si Mommy. I was our family's breadwinner, because I'm pregnant alam kong walang kukuha sa akin sa modelling industry. Kaya nga she disowned me dahil ayaw niyang maging pasanin niya ako kahit pasanin ko sila and she didnt even think about it. The only thing is, I thought about it and I told him kasi akala ko tutulungan niya ako and he will get full responsibility to it when he pushed me away.