untouchable ♡𝅼

✎﹏﹏﹏﹏ found myself again

✿ Jennie ✿

I didn't sleep through the night. In fact, I stayed up in bed, watching each of the girls who slept in the same room as me. Would they care if I talked to them? I thought I didn't even know how to speak anymore, but last night, at that moment, I wanted to talk, I wanted her to feel important to me because she was.

Lalisa Manoban, aka Lisa, was very important to me, although I still didn't know why.

I got up too early and went into the bathroom, hoping that the hot water would help me understand what was going on. She ignored me for two days, and then yesterday, I spoke. Would she ignore me today too? Because if she did, I wouldn't even go leave the building. I didn't want to be alone, but I didn't want anyone by my side if it wasn't her!

I hadn't felt anything like this in a long time. I got used to the silence and the solitude, it was something I liked and valued. I missed my friends, but nothing I couldn't handle. Then she appeared and turned my world upside down. One minute she was an annoying girl trying to be my friend, the next she was a sweetheart who became an irreplaceable part of my life.

She messed up my routine. She brought people into my life, like Mingyu, Somi, and Jisoo. My old friends and now new ones too. They talked all the time, smiled, and cried. They were people who got along despite their differences, and I, even being quiet and not fitting in with them, was part of this group. I became part of them and they became part of my life.

And new feelings started to grow inside me. One of them was longing. Longing for Somi. Longing for Jisoo. I never realized how much I missed them until now.

Or affection. The immense affection I felt for Mingyu. He awakened feelings that I thought I had forgotten long ago. And yet, I don't know what I feel for her. Especially for her.

I don't remember much about my way to the gates, but I remember being there at seven in the morning, even though the school bus would leave at eight.

But I wasn't the only one there, Lisa was too. Her bangs perfectly styled, as always, and her hands in her pockets. She was restless, but as soon as she saw me, she seemed to freeze in place.

"Hi," she said impatiently as I was still approaching.

I didn't reply, just nodded. I stopped in front of her and looked at the ground, kicking a small stone. She would have to apologize if she wanted to hear me speak again.

"Are you mad at me?" she made a face, and I held back a smile.

I didn't answer again, and she eventually accepted that I was mad and lowered her head.

"You know, I couldn't sleep, that's why I'm here too early!" she sighed. "I thought if you came, we could leave before the others and walk like we did the first time!"

I raised my eyebrows. Hadn't she invited Somi and Jisoo to come along? Besides Mingyu? Why would she want to leave like this with me?

"Look, it's okay if you don't want to talk to me anymore, well, I don't even know if it was you who spoke, but..." she stopped and looked very seriously at me. "I never heard that voice before and when I did, I... think I fell for it!"

She was adorable, wasn't she? Seriously, I could be afraid of the rest of the world! Even of my family because I knew both sides of my family, the good and the bad! But not her, I didn't know her bad side, or maybe that side didn't even exist. And maybe that's why I started to feel scared.

She kept looking at me while I stayed silent and then gave up waiting for a response.

I opened my mouth to respond, not wanting her to feel rejected, but closed it again as soon as Rosé approached. She seemed nervous as always, wringing her hands in front of her body.