Someone You Really Love // A Damon Albarn Romance

36 - Conflicted

*SEXUAL CONTENT WARNING*

March 2005

Maryanne's POV

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The kids now 9 years old, seeing them evolve into the beautiful souls they are has been so satisfying. Being a mother rewarded me with a new perspective on life and I couldn't thank Damon anymore for being my rock and loving partner.

Since the success of Gorillaz after their creation in 2001, Damon's newfound popularity has been atmospheric...it's been quite a shock for him and I've been his support as I always have been and as much as I can what with dealing with the kids and their schooling too. While Damon's been away now and then for periods of time, I'm not going to lie, it's been quite lonely but I never wanted to burden him with my worries and pushed it to the back of my mind and carried on through the days surviving with telephones calls and keeping up to date with him that way. Antonia and Alexander are old enough now to ask questions and I've been honest...that's the good thing about our relationship, with them and with their father too - honesty and openess being key.

The last few months however leading up to the release of Gorillaz' second album 'Demon Days' he'd be working in Studio 13 intensely and we hadn't had much alone time....and I missed his closeness...so badly.

One day when the kids were at school and Damon tucked away in his usual spot inside the studio, feeling bored and a bit restless I decided to go visit him at the studio and just see how things were going, even just sitting there or being in the same room as him would remedy these emotions that were battling away inside me.

Round the corner of the hall where his coat was hung up I just popped my head around the door and could see he was deep in thought with one side of his headphones on. "Dames babe, do you want anything from the bakery?" I said after knocking on the door loud enough but not to scare him. "Yes please Mare that'd be fab, a steak bake would be bloody marvellous", he replied turning around and gave a small smile. "No worries, I'll be back shortly", walked over and gave him a kiss on his cheek.

Coming out of the room I was walking past his coat and noticed a small clear bag sticking out his side pocket, speed pills! I really did need a quick booster. Taking the bag I quickly went into the toilet and popped two into my mouth and took a big swig of water. Wiping my mouth I walked back out and quietly pushed the bag into its original position of his pocket.

Clicking the door shut and walking down the street towards the massive flyover bridge I began to look back on Damon and I's journey together so far, and everything had been beautiful so far, my companion, my best friend.

Walking underneath the bridge I followed the path past graffiti covered walls that were so artsy, Damon loved all this kind of street art too. I wished he was walking with me right now.

I was feeling buzzing by now and a nice rush was creeping to every part of my body...it made me feel incredibly horny! All these thoughts of my gorgeous Damon and the rush from the speed was building up and going to spill over. I paid for the pastries and crossed back over and walked back under the flyover with cars whizzing noisily overhead when it died down upon stepping back on Latimer Road where it was nice and quiet compared to the craziness of the main road.

Entering the studio I took my jacket and shoes off and returned to the room Damon was in and saw he was hunched over the mixing desk obviously very deeply concentrated on hearing all the levels were right.

"Dame darling", I gently rested a hand on his shoulder and leaned to kiss his cheek.
Sitting up and smiling he said "thanks for heading out Mare and getting our little snack. I'm starving.." he took the headphones off his head and was about to reach for the pastry wrapped up in my hands when I slyly moved it out of his reach.

Feeling particularly bold from the rush of speed, I said sucked the side of my lips in with a cheeky pout and whispered... "Actually, I thought you could eat me..." and made a move push his chair away from the desk and sit on his lap.

He stifled a laugh at my sudden switch to being seductive, "Where's this coming from? You seem...more perked up than before you left", he moved the hair from the face and looked lovingly and slightly confused. "I've just really really missed you....and I may have pinched a few of your speed tabs", I said sheepishly. "Sorry Dames...I should have spoken to you about my feelings but didn't want you to feel pressured and burden..." "no! Nothing is a burden Mare, like I've always said communication is so important in a relationship and you'll never struggle or go through things on your own. Taking my speed tabs however...." he laughed and poked my nose. "I'm kidding.." he continued. "You've been wanting a rush have you...I can give you that without needing to take a tab...and I should be the one saying sorry, I get so wrapped up in what I'm doing with work I forget..." he said with such sincerity that I just grabbed his cheeks and kissed him so hard, I wanted him, and I wanted him right now. What is it about studios?

He pulled me into the recording booth and clicked the door shut. Through the glass window of the booth was a massive window looking out at the many residential tower blocks that surrounded Ladbroke Grove and Latimer Road, anyone could see us having sex here as it was twilight by now, so it was risky but that was part of the excitement. It seemed my sexual urges were contagious and passed on Damon as he asked me to turn around and take my clothes off. I did so taking each item off and could hear him doing the same behind me with the metal of his belt was heard and trousers dropping to the floor.

I've never felt so aroused in my life, we've always had a pretty solid sex life to be honest, and he's a very generous lover but there's something about doing it in a risky location that's really doing it for me.

"Ohh so you wanted to feel a pleasurable rush huh?", he grunted into my ear pushing me against the glass of the booth window. "If taking a something of yours gets you this riled up I'll do it more often," I turned my head to look behind biting my lip. "Well, it's certainly a nice break from listening to bass levels and sound variations....except I can examine yours now!" He gave a rough laugh, pulling my butt towards him, "you'd better hold onto something... just a little warning...." he turned my lips towards him planting a big smacker on it.

With that warning out he grabbed onto my thighs and really slammed a thrust into me, making me gasp out loud. "Oh fuck Dame...." I squeezed my eyes shut, "Nah I want to see you looking at us in the reflection...mmm you've always been the best fuck I've ever had," he said bringing his face next to mine then leaning back and smacking my behind.

He kept the pace up for a good ten minutes, I'm surprised for someone who I've never seen a bloody workout in his life, he's got stamina but hey I'm not complaining, this pent up tension has been building up for a while now. "At least we aren't shagging on the mixing board this time so no risk of recording anything", I could just about get the words out the pleasure was excruciatingly amazing.

We were both sweating by now and the windows had literally become steamed up with hand prints..HOT!

"Ah shit...I'm going to cum Dame", "fucking hell me too Mare...ah fffff", I saw in the section of unsteamed glass Damon's face contort in pleasure which sent me over the edge too. 'Les petits morts', the little death it certainly is, transcending to such a spiritual level with Damon always confirmed for me that we really were meant to be together and the kids were dead cert proof of that.

"Well Ms Shore that was fucking amazing, no substance could top that feeling you give me..." he smiled lovingly at my red shining face and gave me a toe-curling passionate kiss.

"You're too good at this Mr Albarn, love you." I stroked his face and took my hands away kissing both my hands then pulling his trousers back up, also allowing me to get dressed again.

I giggled and waggled my fingers at him then left the room with a 'wink', "see you back at home Dame, better eat the bake before it gets cold", he laughed and said "ha! Cheeky bugger! see you shortly darling" and he sat back in his chair taking a bite out of the steak bake ready to finish off work the last bit of his work for today.