Querencia (Midnight #1)

Chapter 39

Thirty-nine
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Wala akong sinayang na panahon. Nang marinig ko ang sinabi ni Francine. I could feel my hands trembling because of how worried I am right now. I can't imagine what Maxeus' feeling right now. . . he must have felt so devastated right now.

Damn, I really need to see him right now. He needs me now.

Nagmamadali akong pumunta sa labas upang maghintay ng taxi, mas matatagalan kasi ako kung magbo-book pa 'ko sa grab eh malapit lang naman 'yong hospital dito kung mag-aantay pa 'ko. Agad akong lumakad at hindi inalintana ang init na nakapapaso sa aking balat.

Maxeus needs me more.

I keep on saying that through my mind even though I can feel my skin burning.

Nang marating ko kung saan naka-park ang mga taxi at sakayan nito ay agad akong sumakay at ang sinabing hospital ni Francine sa akin. Nararamdaman ko ang iba't ibang emosyon ang nasa loob ko habang papunta sa hospital.

"Sa'n po tayo, Ma'am?" The driver asked.

I looked at him. "Uh. . . Baypointe po," I answered.

When the driver asked for 500 pesos even though it was just almost a 15-minute-ride, I didn't have the energy to complain because this is the most convenient ride I could ride on the way here.

Kagat labi kong inabot sa driver ang bayad saka lumabas ng kanyang sasakyan, I asked Francine earlier where are they and she answered me that they are still staying outside of the emergency room.

Pumunta ako sa medyo bandang likod dahil doon ko nakita ang nakapaskil na 'Emergency Room'.

The excitement to see Maxeus was still here, but it wasn't a happy excitement anymore. It was an excitement to see him because I wanted to make him feel that everything will be alright even though I wasn't so sure about that.

Gustong-gusto ko siyang makita, gustong-gusto ko na siyang yakapin.

Ang bawat yapak ko ay kasing bigat ng nararamdaman kong bumabalot na bigat sa lugar na ito. I hate being here. I've been here for a couple of times now, and every now and then the reason why I've been here wasn't good. It was a bad experience with my mother and the time when I cut myself.

Pero ni isa sa mga iyon ay hindi ko na muna dapat indahin ngayon. Today is not the right time for me to reminisce from those incidents. . . it's not the reason why I am here.

I almost call every saint I know just so I could make myself feel better right now.

When I reached the place I saw them frustratingly waiting for Tita Morgan; Maxeus was like Kuya Hunter when I saw him after Mom hurted me—his body was lowered, two arms resting on his legs while he's pulling his hair; showing his veins on his amrs, while Ate Monique was zoning out, tears are falling from her eyes, Francine on the other hand was sitting next to Maxeus, calmly caressing his back.

Lalo yatang bumigat ang dibdib ko sa nakikita ko ngayon ngunit hindi ako p'wedeng mag-inarte dahil lang doon.

I clenched my jaw. I took a deep breath so I could calm myself down from saying anything bad. This is not the right place and time to tolerate this kind of behavior of yours, Harmony. Get a grip.

Wala pa rin ang nakakapansin sa pagdating ko. Dahan-dahan pa akong mas lumapit sa kanila upang mapansin nila ang presensya ko.

"Maxeus. . ." tawag ko sa binata.

I saw how his veins slowly vanished as I called his name, his gaze immediately found mine.

"H-Harmony. . ." garalgal niyang tawag pabalik sa akin. His eyes are in so much pain right now, I could feel how frustrated he is through his gaze.