MIDNIGHT SERIES #1
Mahirap mapunta sa isang pamilyang may nabuong gawain o tradisyon dahil sa paglipas ng panahon hindi maaring mabali ang kahit ano o isa roon.
Just like Harmony who suffered from her parents expectations, all of them were smart, al...
I don't know when my feelings started. . . but I like him.
It feels surreal to have this feeling because ever since, it feels like I was forbidden to like someone since I am not good at anything. Isa yaon sa mga itinatatak ni Mommy sa utak ko. I should be good enough first to the man I will like; my grades should be good enough, I should've made myself prettier, I should be someone that they can call 'standard'.
But because I wasn't pretty enough, wasn't smart enough, didn't have talent to amaze everyone. . . she told me I shouldn't have a man enough because I don't deserve it.
Hindi ko alam kung bakit kinailangan ko munang maging halos perpekto bago maging kamahal-mahal, kung sa mga kapatid ko pa lang ay nagkaroon na ako ng pahapyaw kung ano nga ba ang tunay na pagmamahal—they love me for who I am, they accept my flaws, and made me believe that it makes me unique from others.
That's why when I felt the care that I've always wanted, I seek for it—dahil bilang lamang sa daliri kung ilang beses ako trinato nang maayos ng mundong ito.
And when Maxeus showed the care and adoration that I was looking for; nahulog ako, nahulog ako sa mga kilos, salita niya, gustong-gusto ko tuwing nasa paligid siya. . . one day, his attention was the one I was seeking for, I just woke up loving it when he's around me, I just woke up his attention was the one I want.
Sa kanya ko lang muling naramdaman ang pagmamahal na ibinigay sa akin ng mga kapatid at kaibigan ko. . . I know I should forbid myself from liking him 'cause I am not good enough and he deserves better—but that wasn't the thing he made me feel; he made me feel he would still want me even at my worst, and even I have a ton of flaws.
I held my mouth when I saw a picture of us on Maxeus' IG account.
@maxeusgavin
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Ako ang kumuha noon kanina—hindi ko naman alam na iso-story niya. I mean, yes we're friends, but I didn't expect he would post me on his social media. Knowing him? He barely posts about anything himself. Noong ini-stalk ko siya wala akong masyadong nakita mula sa kanya.
Kung hindi ang profile niya o kaya naman ilang picture na naka-tag sa kanya. Kita ko pa nga na wala siyang profile picture sa facebook—sa IG lang, and about X; I don't know if he has an account.
Nagulat ako noong magpop-up ang IG username ni Maxeus, mabilis kong pinindot 'yon at dinala ako sa mismong IG app, sa aming conversation.
@maxeusgavin Have you done our Mathematics assignment?
