Querencia (Midnight #1)

Chapter 14

Fourteen
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I groaned when Ela and Vida started laughing.

"Hindi nga kasi!" I told them.

"Weh? Baka nagseselos ka kasi talaga. . ." Si Ela.

Vida nodded. "I mean, Harms. . . there's nothing wrong if you admit yourself that you were really jealous,"

Nanlaki ang mata ko sa sinabi niya. "Vida!" Reklamo ko. "Akala ko pa naman you'll protect me from Ela, pero isa ka rin pala sa mang-aasar sa 'kin,"

She laughed at me. "Really, Harms. 'Wag mo masyado ikahiya pagiging selosa mo, okay lang. Tayo-tayo lang din naman ang nandito," seryoso niyang ani ngunit tunog nang-aasar yaon sa akin.

I shouldn't tell them about the other day—they suspected that I was jealous that time because of how I acted. Various times telling them that I wasn't because I really was not! Why would I be jealous, right?

As if merong namamagitan sa aming dalawa, 'di ba?

Eh, wala naman.

So, hindi rin dapat nagseselos, kasi walang ikaseselos.

I sulk at them. "Hindi naman kasi talaga. . . they both look good together, eh 'di magsama sila, right?"

Vida held her temple. "Ewan ko sa 'yo, Harmony. Bahala ka na sa gusto mong paniwalaan. You are talking opposite on how you react,"

"Awat ka kasi 'te, kami lang naman kasama mo, oh!" Ela nudged at me.

My day ended with a heavy feeling in my chest. I don't really wanna believe that I was jealous, but that's actually what I'm seeing—I'm just denying the fact because as I've said, I don't have the right.

I took a deep breath as I threw myself on the bed.

Goodness, they were forcing pa kasi na nagseselos ako. Ayan tuloy, ang hirap na i-deny sa sarili ko.

Okay naman na 'ko. I mean. . . at least, right? Because why would I be bothered with someone's companion, right?

Malamang, mas okay silang tingnan bagay naman yata sila eh?

For an unexplainable reason, my heart suddenly sank. I slowly reached for the left side of my chest and held it. I shut my eyes.

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"Bigayan na ng card n'yo! Kami raw kukuha ni Hera, Harms!" Si Kuya Hunter at marahang tumabi sa aking gilid.

I can't help but to pity myself, lagi kasing walang time sina Mommy kapag kukuhain 'yung card ko unless my adviser requested for them. That's why whenever they're not, my parents won't go there, kasi ang sabi nila disappointment lang naman daw.

Bahagyang kumirot ang puso ko sa naisip na iyon. Ipinilig ko ang ulo ko at binalik ang atensyon sa ginagawa.

I bit my lips to suppress myself from crying.

Lumingon ako kay Kuya Hunter ng may nanlilisik na mata, I'm pissed of him, his whole existence is pissing me off.

"Lah. . . ginawa ko sa 'yo? Aga-aga 'te, ha!" Reklamo niya sa akin.

Ibinalik ko ang tingin ko sa aking ginagawa. It's my project on Science. . . Ma'am Intel told us to do this at home so that we have our time to do it. Actually, she really doesn't have a choice because we run out of time. That's why she decided we should make this at home.

But for me, mas okay sa 'king sa school ginagawa ang lahat ng activities and projects dahil kapag nasa bahay na, students must rest, they shouldn't thinking about a project that will be pass the next day, the next week, or next month.