Back To You

Lesbian Date

Malakai Davis

"Do you and Hiraeth talk about your depression?" Dr. Kline peered at me over her glasses.

I was a bit taken aback by the question, I mean I had just told her that Hiraeth and I were dating. But, she was probably just trying to make up for the fact that we hadn't seen each other for two weeks. I kept canceling our sessions because I didn't feel like coming.

"It's never really been brought up... I suppose. But she knows I'm going through something, I think. I'm trying to open up more." I was working on not being so closed off but it was still hard.

"Okay... so what have you told her about yourself? Aside from the basics like your favorite color and foods that you don't enjoy." Dr. Kline asked.

"She knows I'm a stripper and that I'm in therapy." I bit my lip as I tried to think of anything else, but I couldn't find much. "She supports me when it comes to both of these. She was the one who actually drove me to this appointment because she knew that I had skipped the last two sessions. Sorry about that by the way."

"She knows that you're in therapy but not why." Dr. Kline clarified.

I nodded. "I don't... it's hard to talk about it with you. I don't think I'll ever be able to talk about it with her."

"Being open is a key part of having a successful relationship." Dr. Kline reminded me.

I sighed. "I'm trying. I swear."

"Malakai, trying and doing are two different things." She said, softly but firmly.

I groaned. "And this is the part where you give me a homework assignment which consists of telling Hiraeth more about myself?"

"I wasn't planning on asking you to do anything except for showing up to next week's session. But that is a good idea." Dr. Kline smirked. "So are you happy?"

I nodded. I truly was, happier than I even expected to be. "It feels different than my previous relationships." I decided to elaborate since Dr. Kline didn't speak. "I actually want her." I truly enjoyed being around Hiraeth, and actually being affectionate with her. "And I actually like it when she kisses me. She doesn't kiss me like she's expecting more to come from it. Speaking of... I was looking more into the term... asexual."

"And?" Dr. Kline prompted. She didn't seem surprised by the change in topic, meaning she had probably already expected it.

I probably should have listened to her the first time she brought it up. But I figured she was just nudging me into researching myself to see if it fit me. She wasn't exactly diagnosing me with it. Then again a sexuality isn't something someone gets diagnosed with anyway.

"I think I might be... that or whatever." I sighed. "How do I break it to Hiraeth? What if she doesn't understand?"

"You're speaking as if there is something wrong with being asexual. There is nothing wrong with it and there is nothing wrong with you, Malakai." Dr. Kline smiled gently. I couldn't bring myself to return the smile. "You never know how someone is going to react until you talk to them."

Hiraeth Davenport

I pulled my dress down over my hips. "Do you think she'll notice that my boobs are pushed up higher than usual?"

"Honestly, I couldn't tell." Wynn shrugged. She was still in my closet trying to find a final pair of pants for me to wear.

We had spent the last two hours packing outfits for me to wear on the trip I was going on. Picking out two outfits and a pair of pajamas was very time-consuming. I wanted to make sure I looked cute but that it wasn't too much.