Yaunfen (Book three to Attraction)

17.

When I get to school on Monday my heart is pounding in my chest, today is the day I am going to break up with Conner. I do not know what I am doing right now, I know I said I need to work on my relationship with him and I know he said he wants to change but after I spent the day with Seth I just really feel like the best thing I can do for myself and Conner is to just end things with him. Where that leaves Seth and I, I don't know. But I know I need to break things off with Conner. My heart stops beating in my chest as he approaches me in the hallway, heavy guilt is evident in his features. A lot of people are looking at us right now, it feels like everyone knows what he has done to me. Did McKenna tell people? No, she wouldn't do that to me.

"Hey" He speaks in a more gentle tone, his eyes scan my bruised up face.

"Hi" I softly respond. "Conner, I need to talk to you."

He hesitates. "What is it?"

"I think we need to break up."

His entire face falls when I say this, he looks completely crushed which makes me feel terrible.

"What?" He asks like he wants to make sure he heard me correctly.

"I know you said you want to change and I think that's really good, but I think the best thing we can do right now is to break up. You keep hurting me and I can't do this anymore."

My eyes glance to the side to see a bunch of students watching us now, including Allison Jones, McKenna, and Chandler. It's quiet in the hallway, too quiet. My heart is pounding in my chest as I wait for Conner to reply. He looks so upset right now, he looks truly crushed.

"I want to change for you."

"I know, but I can't take this anymore." I try to keep my voice soft and quiet.

"You're really going to break up with me?" He looks devastated. My eyes begin to water as I nod my head yes, a few tears make their way down my cheeks.

Last night I texted McKenna and I told her the real truth, I told her absolutely everything. She called me and we cried together on the phone for about an hour but she told me she wasn't angry at me for not telling her the truth. She said she was sad that I felt like I had to hide that from her, she also made it clear to me that she doesn't want me to be with him anymore. When I look back up at Conner I see a few tears have gathered in his eyes now too, he doesn't say anything, he just nods his head before turning around and walking away down the school hallway. McKenna hurries over to me as she wraps her arms around me, a few of my tears leak into her sweater.

"It's okay." She soothes. I stop crying and look up at her, she looks concerned.

"You did the right thing."

I hear someone bitterly laugh, we look over to see Allison. "You did that to yourself, bitch."

"Excuse me?!" McKenna snaps.

"Oh don't play deaf I know you both heard me."

"I didn't do this to myself." I object.

"Conner would never hurt a woman, you're an attention seeking lair!" She snaps.

McKenna charges for Allison, she shoves her.

"Get the hell out of here!" She yells, Allison shoves her back.

"Bitch!"

Chandler steps in between the two of them and gets them both to stop, my eyes begin to water again. I officially hate today and I hate that Allison thinks that I did this to myself, but I know Conner would never admit to doing this to me out loud. He didn't even admit it when I just broke up with him.