As I raise this gun to my head
In a few seconds I will be dead
I don't know, if I'll experience pain
If I survive, I'll never be the same
I might go
What you people call "emo"
And I will do the cuts deeper
Thinking "this one's a keeper"
But if I don't survive
Know I'm also the gun
But I give up, I'm done
Live was already killing me
I'm not gonna say sorry
I tear myself apart
So in with a bullet, out with heart
So all this can be over
And I can truly show her
How I truly feel
That this all was real
So when they find me dead tomorrow
Drowned in my own blood, guts and sorrow
Know that I tried
But I failed and died
So when I never live again
I'll know I've found my end
And every time I tried to explain
You never understood any of my pain
But I tried over and over again
And I just gave up
I slammed the door shut
But you understood too late
And now I stand in front of the gate
Do you know which one...heaven or hell
Well you know, I'm not gonna tell
Because you don't deserve to know
But I deserve to go
I wasn't worthy enough to be understood
Took love too seriously, more than others would
And you see the reason why
The truth behind my lies
How every time I breathe, it's a waste of breath
When I was alive, I was just wasting death
So here I stand in this darkness
Completely alone, drowned in loneliness
So here I stand with the gun
But I've given up, I'm done
So I pull the trigger out of the gun tonight
My heart has given up the fight
The bullets not a dud
So I lay in my blood
Don't call me stupid, this is smart
So in with the bullet, out with my heart.
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Hoffe es gefällt euch ^^ dieser Text ist nicht von mir aber ich fand ihn gut.
Ich möchte mich an dieser Stelle nochmal bei euch bedanken für über 600 reads und über 200 votes♥ das is echt heftig. Danke danke danke♡
Lots of love :* Lena ^^ ♥
