HIS INNOCENT BRIDE

FIFTY-TWO

AYSHAM’S POV:

Nope.

No.

Never.

I never wanted to be the girl who would fall in love with a man who just showed a pinch of care and had spent a little amount of money on me and I would be his forever. I never liked why there was always women who fell in love just by receiving a little attention. I wasn’t an attention seeker but a little amount of attention from him could send me on cloud nine and the worst thing was I had started craving for it. I could be the side effect of the negligence I endured my entire life and now I was getting all of the attention as if God was trying to compensate all of that. But again, I never wanted to be the girl who just fell for a guy after meeting a few times and the guy would fall in love when the girl was about to lose her sanity and self-respect altogether.

These were the thoughts roaming inside my mind as I wanted him to fall in love with me first. It wasn’t ego, it was just my sanity that had become like one after all these years. I was tired of running behind people to like me and respect me. I just didn’t want to run now neither I am asking someone to run behind me. I am just standing whoever wants me or whoever wants me with sincerity and all their heart could approach me and I wouldn’t run away and make fun of them by giving them a hard time. If I see sincerity and love I was craving for I would accept them and that’s what is opposite to those people who are considered toxic. I deserved to be worth of taking few steps towards me showing me they actually want me to be the part of their life. Everyone has a chaotic life it’s the people you have makes them bearable for you.

Every thought came into my mind when I thought what it was which I was feeling towards him and now dreaming different scenarios and waking up in his arms it dawned upon me that it wasn’t an addiction and I was glad it wasn’t because addiction was always negative.

Yes, I was in his arms right now. The moment I opened my eyes I knew it was the day I wouldn’t like to get out of my bed because of the warmth and a comforting cologne around me. The first sight I came across with was my hand above his beating heart as my head was still on his shoulder. Raising my head my cheeks got fanned with his warm breath as he was sleeping composedly and the thing that put smile on my face was his arms wrapped securely around my waist and his leg on top of my leg. He was cuddling me as if I was his teddy bear. My bed wasn’t as big as his king sized but still there was plenty of space on his side though he was more on my side leaving nothing on my side as I was on the edge but his grip around me could never let me fall neither I turned around in night.

Since I had nothing to do, I just lay leisurely in his arms as I couldn’t ruin his sleep as he was sleeping without any frown on his face and I must say without any frown or stern expression on his face he was cute with his small pointed nose and plump lips. He even had a tiny black mole on his eyelid which I just got to witness as my face was so close to him.

This was the moment when I started having these types of thoughts but still, I couldn’t detach myself from him knowing perfectly where this was going. I was scared of becoming a heartbroken girl as I hadn’t witnessed his full thoughts about how he found about all the lies I have told him and how he was going to deal with that.

I was in my thoughts when the door of my room burst opened revealing Suzi who almost screamed seeing me sleeping with him but she soon covered her mouth with her both hands.

“What’s happening?” She mouthed as I glared at her for keep standing there because I got startled and sat up immediately but couldn’t remove his heavy hand from around my waist.

I just simply ushered her to go with my hands as I didn’t want him to wake up while I saw him scrunching his nose a little at my violent shaken up.