Christian Poems

Quiet Time

Lord Jesus, thank You for this time with You. This "Jesus at the Park" event is a nice idea. But I didn't imagine spending such quality time alone with You.
It started because my mood declined. There was tiny things that urked me through the day, nothing serious though. Besides, I'm running on two hours of sleep.

But Lord, I felt second hand rebuke about interrupting a prayer to be, that two friends were going to do for someone. It started off great- talking to people, making connections and praying for people. We split up a little. As we saw our friends join a group of people, we ran over, apparently scaring the people off. One of our friends said something against the main interrupter and I couldn't help but feel attacked and discouraged. After all, I had ran over too.

How were we supposed to know they already were making progress? They happened to go back to that group after talking to others, cause they wanted to pray for a girl, but we thought it was a beginning conversation.

I felt discouraged and felt the Spirit of joy and willingness leave me. I talked to a friend about going back to our blanket, to worship and renew my Spirit, away from said friend. But they all were going to retreat. So, I stayed back. I wanted to be alone with You.

I am sitting under a tree, in the shade. I prayed to You, talking about my feelings. How I was frustrated. I know I should have a teachable spirit. But it discouraged me all the same. And I have a hard time telling the truth to people who hurt me, because I hate appearing weak or oversensitive.

So, I read all through Hebrews instead. And now I feel refilled. I want to focus more on You though. I have hours until we have to leave the event anyway. They can have fun without me, until I decide to head back. Which will be soon because of the bugs.

Lord, thank You for refilling me.

Hebrews was so inspiring, Lord. I want to be considered as those servants of Yours who were known as faithful. Help me to be stronger. To suffer for the Kingdom. To be willing to do what it takes. I also pray You strengthen me, to focus solely on You, not this person I like. And not the frustration that comes with it. He should never be someone I set my eye on. You're my love. You make me feel safe, heard, comforted, worthy. Thank You for making me feel loved and like no human could.

Thank You, Lord. My time with You is not at a close quite yet. I wish to listen to worship music on my own before thinking on heading back. Lord, strengthen me. Help my courage and joy be filled.

I love You, Lord.

Thanks for this quiet time.

I'm so blessed.