Christian Poems

My Vow

Dear God,

I present to You a vow. Not like an oath. And not swearing. I don't give a promise that if I fail to fulfill, You'll look unto me with anger. Because the one thing I can promise is that I won't be able to get everything right. I can't be perfect, You know that too well. Unfortunately, too well.

So well, that You bore my sins on Yourself. That You died for the likes of me, in order for me to have hope and a future with You. You know my lack of perfection so well that a thorned crown was placed upon Your head. So well that Your hands and feet were nailed to the cross.

But despite my lack of righteousness to the level Your perfect will would want me to be at, I offer You a vow of my love.

I'm getting baptized tomorrow. An act I probably should've done right when I was saved. But I know I have a better understanding now. Of You, of what You expect of me, and of what I need to strive for. I have seen enough to know that You are real. That's not even in question. But I also realize that I need to do this now.

I know this is a symbol of me dying with Christ and rising in righteousness with Him. I know this is a symbol of my commitment to You. To show You and others. So, Lord Jesus, lend Your ear my way as I express my love and determination to commit to You.

You have been by my side since the day I was born. You were with me through every sin, every struggle, every tear, every time I had anxiety, every time I was angry, everytime I chose the world over You. You never left and were always watching me.

I'm not sure what was so different about the night You saved me, but I won't ever forget it. The night You extended Your hand to a broken hearted girl who was stuck. I knew I was a sinner and that I needed You. I couldn't escape the grip of sin by myself. I needed Your cleansing. Your clean slate that You offer. I'll never forget the feeling of the Holy Spirit urging me to stop crying. I felt a weight leave my shoulders. It was a moment of compassion. Your grace and love were upon me. But Your commands came through just as clear. That I needed to take action.

Just thinking about it, makes me want to cry in thanks to You. I thank You, Lord Jesus, for saving me. Dying for me, in order to have that moment. The moment of my soul being saved and torn away from Satan and eternal death. I thank You that since that day, You have been with me to help me grow. The discipline me, convict me, comfort me and teach me.

Compared to the night I was saved, to where I am now, I'm barely recognizable. I'm not that same person. That me is dead. And she'll never be resurrected. I'm a new creature. I am renewed. And I know that there wasn't anything I did to deserve this new life of mine. I can only boast in You.

So, God, as I look back on Your goodness to me, I want to emphasize my willingness to commit to You. I know I don't need baptism to do this. It just seems like a good time to express this.

In this action, Lord, I commit my life to You, knowing well aware what You need and want from me. I am willing. I know that I'll have to fight my flesh and deny things. I know that things will be hard. But I know that I'm willing to keep growing. To be who You want me to be. Even if it's hard, I'm willing to give up things for You. I know You'll help me be the person who can do that. To not look back. To chose You. You'll discipline me and rebuke me in Your great love.

I know You'll help me have the right mindsets I need to have as a Christian. I'm willing to reach all these standards You've set for me. Though my flesh may fight it, I'm willing to give my life for You. I want to be able to give my life for my brothers and sisters in Christ as well. Though I may have fears of suffering or torture or persecution, I know You'll build in me boldness. You'll build in me the love of Jesus. You'll build in me humility.

So, my vow is to tell You that I'm willing. I want to fight the flesh and continue to be renewed. I'm willing to be changed and to live the life You want me to live.

I, Lord, want to prioritize You as I've been learning to do. I want to grow in Your word. To understand, to study, to speak it. I want to grow in general godly wisdom and discernment. I want to accept all the promises You have for me. I want to accept the full potential. I want to have everything You want for me. To be brave, kind, humble, full of You. I want to be like Jesus in any and all ways You'll help me be.

I know I've run from You in the past. I want to be better at that. To run to You for protection. Whom shall I run to if not You? You've come to die for me, I should run to You when I mess up. Otherwise, I'd find no mercy for my weary and broken soul. I want to seek You more. To praise You more. To be in Your presence more. To hear Your voice more.

I am committed to You, Lord. You've done so much for me and I know there is so much more You'll do for me and in me. I've been seeing so much of Your goodness lately and stand in awe of it. I know I have no life apart from You. I have nothing without You. I am nothing without You. So, Lord, I choose to stay at the foot of the cross. Through every trouble and trial. I choose You.

I. Choose. You
I. Commit. To You.
I. Want. You.
I. Love. You.

Just as You have chosen me first. You committed Yourself to me first. You wanted me first.
You loved me first.