Christian Poems

I Should've Listened

Lord, Jesus. This seems to be a constant in my life. You convicting me not to be involved with someone. Me acknowledging the fact I feel that conviction. Me not taking it to heart and doing it anyway. Getting myself hurt by their true colors being exposed. And finally, me coming to You, telling You how right You were.

Firstly, Lord, I apologize. I always ignore conviction when I think I know better. I ignore the feeling because I don't see the red flags that You do. You know people's heart, whereas, I see only what a person wants me to see.

Not that this person is bad. And I don't want to ignore the log in my eye, while focusing on the speck in their eye. But, Lord. This man, I've had feelings for, for a little bit. You know this. A close friend of mine knows this. And both You and the other person knew it's not an ideal thing...

He's a strong evangelizer. He has a lot of zeal for You. He is kind and wonderful to talk to. Fellowship with him has been some of the best parts of my days at times. Although he has parts of him You didn't want me to mix with. I ignored that and sort of just indulged in my feelings. He probably doesn't even know.

But, I met this girl at work through him. I thought they had just met and he was evangelizing, but she said they've been talking for a few weeks. That's fine. But she's been revealing a lot to me recently. Not that I ask for the information, I'm just a trusted listener, and she is a talker. I like her. She's a believer. But she's worldly. I do want to be a good influence on her life and have You work through me to bring her to You.

But, Lord. Apparently the two have been flirting. They've connected and he asked her on a date to which she rejected because she is in a relationship currently. She is thinking she made a mistake, as she thinks her new relationship is going to be toxic.

Now, this man is a man of God. He's strong and I see the love he has for You, in him. But I'm worried that he will compromise by being with this girl. She currently is involved with the sin of sexual immorality. The woman told me that she likes the dirty side of men too, although it's important to her to have the emotional connection. And apparently he revealed what stuff he likes in the former part.

This doesn't sound like the man I know. It's quite disappointing to imagine him getting involved in such a way. I am disappointed that my friend, a man with faith, would compromise to a woman who isn't strong in faith.

Look at Solomon. He was lead away, by Gentile women, from the Lord. I'm worried that since they are on different spiritual levels, he'll get himself into trouble. Things he shouldn't be doing or getting involved in. I respect him too much. Admire him too much. Care about him too much. I'd hate to see it happen.

I want to show grace. I want to be gentle and patient. But I feel that, at least as a fellow child of God, I should exhort the both in case the issue comes up. Of course, I won't butt my way into something that isn't my business at a wrong time. I'll continue to seek Your wisdom.

But, God, please protect him. Help keep him strong, so he can continue to represent You without fail. Help him to stand on the Firm Foundation. Lord, keep him walking in purity and not give into temporary wants. Lord, as for her, help her heart soften to the idea of changing in a godly way. Help her to, over time, accept You in more parts of her life. And help me love these people as You would. And truth be told, I already do care for them both.

But Lord, help jealousy not play a part in this. Help bitterness to leave too. I don't want to be jealous over someone I never had Your approval over in the first place. I knew he wasn't right and that I can't be with him, even if he did return the feelings. Which he doesn't. Help protect my lips, so nothing unedifying comes out. Though I may be disappointed with these things I'm learning about him, help me to keep my heart in a right place.

God knows, I'm not perfect. You know this too well, Lord. So, help me to focus on me. Help me grow. To be secure in my faith. To be strong and able to lead others to You. Help me humbly address things that need to be addressed.

And again, I'm sorry for ignoring You. You were right. I never saw this all coming, but You did. You knew their hearts. I never could've imagined him being this way, by the God glorifying conversations we've had. How strong he seems to be in his faith in a constant way. So, though I will show grace, true colors may be shining through.

I know we all sin, but this seems like a big step for how mighty he seemed to be with You as his Lord and Savior. But we all fall short. So, God, protect him. Help her. And be with me through it all.

I suppose I've learned my lesson once again, though. That even though I may not be able to see anything wrong with a person, or even a situation, You see all. You see people's hearts. You see into the future. You know everything. You know what's best. Please forgive me and help me to remember this fact. May I keep it hidden in my heart and my mind, always.