Consider Me

Chapter Thirteen: Lily

I am fuming. Why did I thought talking to Lucas would help me? I am more agitated than before and what's with the nicknames he's calling me. First, it was babe then I got demoted to darling. God, I hate it. 

I hate it more that a part of me likes it. Something is really wrong with me. Ever since he kissed me and wrote that stupid four letter word with blue ink that by the way took me thirty minutes to rub off my palm in the bathroom, I am weirdly demanding his presence. It doesn't matter how or when, I want him near me. 

I think it's something to do with worshipping the devil. I keep thinking about him, his stupid soft lips that left a tingle on my face, his scent. Just why did he have to sit beside me, give my nostrils a vacation to rich country of perfumes then leave me. 

Ugh. 

Is there a way I can stop thinking about that asshole? 

The answer came in the form of my best friend and Kevin who are walking towards me. I stop first at the corridor. "Hi Kevin,"

"Lily," he nods. Kevin Wright is my friend from physics class. We have done numerous assignments in the last three years and hope so our senior year too because despite his playful attitude, Kev is really good academically. With his blonde hair and blue eyes, he can pass for a classic English man. His manners are also polite but with a sprinkle of his fun-loving intake about life. 

"Wow. No hug, no teasing me with my hair?" I point. Kevin normally hugs me whenever he sees me. It's friendly and we're both in the habit to hug one another whenever we see each other which is why when he doesn't hug me right now, I am a bit confused. What changed?

He exchanges a look with Sabina, "I don't think I can do that anymore Lils. You're dating Lucas and everyone knows what happens to people who touch his things,"

I mock a laugh, "Did you just called me things?"

Sabina intervenes, "That's not what he meant," she smacks his arm and gives me a smile, "It's just that there are things that the students around you are ought to do now considering you're you know his girlfriend,"

I am not his girlfriend. "Like what?"

Kevin looks around us. "Why don't we-" he points to the cafeteria door and urges us to move inside. 

Sabina and I head to our usual table in the middle corner and Kevin grabs us some fruit juice boxes. When he returns he sits next to Sabina and it takes everything in me not to dwell about the empty chair next to me. It wasn't because of Kevin but my gut tells me the empty chair is for someone else. 

Someone I specifically told not to approach me but who am I kidding? People like him don't listen. Deep breaths, we're trying not to think about him and we're not doing a great job. 

Sabina pops the juice box with the straw and takes a sip. 

"So listen," Kevin says running his fingers along the edges of his orange juice box. Mine is mango. "This thing with Lucas and you is really weird,"

"Tell me about it,"

"We don't know how to be around you," Sabina smacks his arm again earning a painful 'ouch' from him. "What? Why do you keep hitting me?"

"Because you keep saying things in a negative way," She leans forward, "Don't listen to him Lily. He's just upset that he can't give you bear hugs now."

"What type of sorcery is this? He's my friend-" I turn to Kevin, "You can hug me. Who says you can't?"

"You're boyfriend," they both say at the same time. 

"For the last time he is not my bloody boyfriend. I said no to the proposal. I said no to him,"

"Lily honey that doesn't matter. He picked you which means for as long as he's with you, no one in the campus can touch you,"