traitor || sonadow angst

xxxi

NSFW Warning + Mention of SH

Shadow was stuck. He had only made Sonic feel worse. But he couldn't cut himself now. What good would that do for him? Starving wasn't satisfying, neither were burns. He couldn't punish himself. What had Sonic done to him?

He had once told himself that he would do whatever he wanted, ignoring judgement from all who oppose him. But... he had a weak spot for Sonic. He would do anything for him. He couldn't even identify what it was, perhaps simply an everlasting need to please him. Maybe he feared that if he rebelled against Sonic, he wouldn't receive his love.

Sonic had so much love in his heart that this seemed irrational.

He wondered if he wanted him to sleep on the couch, where he had been seated. All he wanted right now was his lover's warmth.

He flicked on the TV to something stupid, some sitcom. He would never understand why Sonic liked them. They weren't even funny. He leaned against the side of the sofa, mindlessly watching, trying to distract himself from his unproductive thoughts.

"Are you coming to bed?" Sonic appeared in the hallway, leaning against the wall for support.

"Am I allowed to?"

"Wha- yes? Oh my god, come here." He scoffed.

Shadow stalked over to him, noticing a wince in his features.

"Are you okay?"

"Yeah, standing's not the most comfortable thing in the world right now."

"Would you like me to carry you?"

"Could you?" He smiled.

Shadow scooped his lover up in his arms, bringing him back to their room much slower than they had before. The hallways were dark, only illuminated by the moonlight pouring through their open door. Shadow rested the other hedgehog in bed, sitting down beside him.

"Why did you think I wanted you to sleep on the couch?" Sonic asked softly.

"Because I'm causing you problems. I assumed you needed space. It was in your tone."

"Oh, baby, I'm sorry. I was just tired and groggy." He sighed. "You don't cause me problems. I have no issue taking care of you when you need it, because you've done it so much for me."

"I... suppose." He muttered.

"Can I make it up to you?"

"It wasn't your fault. There's nothing to make up for."

"Please just hear me out."

Shadow sighed, facing Sonic.

"Look, what I'm trying to say... I already can't walk, so I've got nothing to lose, if you know what I mean. Only if you want to though!"

Shadow's eyes almost visibly lit up, scanning him up and down.

"Are you sure?"

"Yeah!" He beamed. "It's been so long! And you've been having a rough time lately, so why not relieve some stress?"

"Alright, why not?"

Sonic practically leaped up, straddling his lover's hips with a wince.

"Take it slow. I just had to carry you in here." Shadow chuckled before connecting their lips, resting his paws on Sonic's hips. Sonic rocked back and forth, grinding against Shadow, earning a soft, deep moan. He trailed soft, tender kisses down his jaw, his fingers tangled in his chest fur. "Why are you doing all the work?"