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41. On my mind

(Mia's pov)
I'm currently leaning against the wall outside. I quit smoking for the most part, bad habit and what not. But not even putting vodka in my cereal would get me through these past couple of days.

I've been here two days and already want to top myself. I don't even know why I came back. I have never met this man in my life but if I wasn't here, it would make my mum look bad. Of course it's all good as long as she comes off as the best mother. 'Even though she had to raise a rebel of a daughter all by herself' yeah right. I didn't raise myself or anything.

Ever since my dad left, she was the victim of it all. I was 8 years old! And since then I raised myself while she drank herself unconscious. Most the time she didn't even realise I wasn't at home. I'd always be with Reece and Autumn. But they lost their mum too. And left with Roger of all people. Even with all my mum did, Reece and Aut had it worse.

To them and everyone else my mum was perfect. That's how it's always been. Anytime something happened she managed to twist herself into the victim and I was the awful daughter. And it's not like anyone would believe what I had to say anyway. The only thing I could do was prove them all right.

I spoke to Char and she told me all about Isla's play. It honestly just makes my blood boil. When I get back I will find that man and make him feel so much pain. Yet nothing will compare to how his 7 year old daughter felt standing on that stage. How I felt all those years ago. Those girls deserve the world and he's just treating them like something you find on the back of your shoe. It makes me sick.

Char however, my sweet loving Charlotte, wouldn't hurt a fly. I know how much hate she feels towards him and it only increased my own anger. How could someone do that to someone like her? Or Ellie and Isla.

My Charlotte is such an angel. She is even helping Reece out with his issues. She told me was coming over tomorrow. It makes me think, if Reece out of all people can actually ask for help, maybe there is some hope.

Charlotte doesn't know about Michelle. I'm only doing these useless sessions to be better for her. So why would I tell her about them? I've always been taught that asking for help is weak. I am not weak. But the only thing I care about now is Char, Ellie and Isla. As soppy as it sounds, they make me want to be a better person.

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A/N
Okay so I wanted to include a bit of Mia's story and more with her mother as we don't know too much about her so this is what I've gone with. Mia will be back with Char soon :)
Xoxo-I